Robynn's questions everyday to Brady and Hailey

I challenge us all to follow in Robynn's footsteps.
Ask your own children the following and make sure you take action yourself!

1. What was the best part of your day today?
2. What did you do to make someones day better?

Those are your orders....

Pray On!
S

Thoughts on yesterday will come later;)
Have a safe and wonderful New Years Eve!

Memorial Service

OLG Church-911 Park- West Sacramento
Tuesday, December 30th 11am

Our Special Mass with Father Craig

Knowing how hard Christmas would be for our family and Kelly's, Father Craig made us an offer we could not refuse. A private mass at the Brown's home. We were so grateful that he would honor our families with such a spectacular gift. It was as perfect as it could be. Father Craig was all set up with Robynn's picture on one side of the altar and Kelly's on the other. the Brown's had cleared all the furniture out of their living room and replaced it with folding chairs from the church. Kelly's boys, Spencer and Mason gathered in another room with their cousins, practicing each of their very special parts and Brady and Hailey got ready to lead everyone in the 3 Christmas songs we'd sing with them. It was an indescribable experience to see these beautiful women's children touch our hearts so profoundly. Full of emotion and tears streaming down my face, I felt the pride that Heaven was filled with. I missed them beyond any expression, yet I felt them so near.
In Robynn and Kelly's honor and in honor of Our Saviors birth, we gathered in faith,prayer, song, sorrow and hope. A moment in my life that will impact me always.
Before I left, Kelly's parents and sister Brandy gave me"Pandora's box" charm bracelet with a single "K" charm. I had Father Craig bless it and yesterday I went and added 2 charms. One was a four leaf clover that represented Robynn(my Christmas ornament this year from her was a Christmas tree made out of four leaf clovers) and the second was a bible with a cross that dangled from it. Two women I love so deeply. I often wonder how I will survive without them. The bible sits between them as a reminder of how I must trust in the Lord and obey "His Will". Pray that we all may find a way to be comforted by His great love and promise of His kingdom where Robynn and Kelly await our arrival!

Pray On!
S

We Made it Through Our 1st Christmas Without Our Beloved Robynn...

Brian, Brady and Hailey made it safely back to West Sac. The kids and I will head there Monday morning for Tuesday's service. If you missed the Bakersfield obituary, it is in the Saramento Bee today and tomorrow.
The busyness of Christmas; preparing to feed 40 people and then clean up, helped take the edge off our tremendous sadness. Thank you so much for your continued prayers.

Be still, my soul: the Lord is on thy side;
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain;
Leave to thy God to order and provide;
In every change He faithful will remain. -von Schegel

Love and God bless
Pray On!
S

Celebrate Christmas!!!

Your orders still "Stand"!

Sending our very best "Robynn hugs" on this special day when Christ Our Savior was Born!

Merry Christmas "Army Goodell"!

Pray On!
S

John 3:16
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

Robynn's Service

I feel the need to bow to each and every one of you who came to honor "Our Girl" yesterday.
I am on my knees in unending gratitude. What a perfect representation of our most magnificent soldier, Robynn. Thank you for sharing in our sorrow, grief, joy and faith. We hope you will join us in following Father Craig's command..."Celebrate Christmas" and celebrate Robynn.
Those are your orders...CELEBRATE CHRISTMAS Army Goodell!

West Sac services will be at 11am Tuesday the 30th at Our Lady of Grace.

Pray ON!
S

Thank you to whomever left me the darling santa pants that held the most beautiful angel, dressed in black boots, a green and black taffeta dress and "bling" around her neck. She is precious and I will treasure her always!

Prayer Request for Sean Malone

Kerrie Malone's husband is in the hospital suffering head trauma and remains unconscious due to a car accident. He is in ICU and they had to drill into his skull to help relieve the pressure.
Kerrie is pregnant with their 3rd child and has been one of Robynn's best friends for years.
On our knees Army Goodell...on our knees!

Pray On!
S

Memorial up North

Tuesday December 30th at OLG is when Robynn's memorial will be. We will also be running her obit in the Sacramento Bee next weekend.

Psalm 29:11
The Lord gives his people strength.
The Lord blesses them with peace.

Stand Strong!
Pray On!
S

Robynn's Obituary

It can be found in Saturday & Sunday's paper at;
http://www.bakersfield.com/

I have had many requests via email and I think most of them can be accommodated when this is available to you tomorrow. If not...you know where to find me;)

Brain, Hailey, "Calkan" and I have made it back to Bakersfield safely and are waiting for
Mum-Mum, Papa, Brady and Tanner to get here.
Thank you for praying for safe travels!

XOXO!
Pray On!
S

Hold Tight West Sac!

We are working on a memorial service for Robynn in your town;)
Please be patient with us, as we have so much to do.

I thought you would take comfort in knowing Father Jos came by last night and anointed her and we gathered around her holding hands and prayed together. When Father finished, Robynn immediately spoke in her sweet but quiet voice making sure we all knew how much she loved us and how she was so grateful for taking such wonderful care of her and her family. It is mostly a blur, but her absolute grace and presence of spirit resonated as we knelt before her, totally "in Awe"once again. It takes my breath away as I type...

God Bless you ALL!
Pray On!

Standing Strong with Jesus

Army Goodell,

Our gracious Lord has commanded that Robynn come to Him.
Being the ever faithful servant...she obeyed.

That is all I have for now, I'm sorry.
Pray On!
S

Services will be 11am Tuesday December 23rd at St. Francis Church in Bakersfield.
Thank you Father Craig for accommodating us so quickly.

My Email

bdairygirl@gmail.com (kind of important, i guess;)
There are many of you that have asked "don't post this" and asked for a phone call.
Here is my email so that you can send your thoughts/request to me personally.
Please understand my priority is helping care for Robynn and I will get to you when I can.

Army Goodell ROCKS!!!!!!
Thank you dear soldiers...
Pray On!
S

A Little Wobbly...

...but we are still Standing Strong!

Thank you for holding us up!

All my love!
Pray On!


2 Corinthians 1:3
Praise God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! The Father is a merciful God, who always gives us comfort.

Another Rough Night

Restlessness has become our forefront enemy. She still battles nausea and vomiting, but not being able to find a way to get settled seems the most bothersome right now. She craves food and liquids even though she knows she can't keep them down. They increased her meds in hopes of getting her some mush needed rest. She did get a shower this morning and sat in her favorite chair while I did her make-up. Jamba juice was here when we finished and she was so excited. Didn't sit well, but we knew it wouldn't:(


Deuteronomy 7:9
Know therefore that the LORD your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commands.

Pray on!
S

She Did It!

As hard as it was, she made it out to the front room to view Brady and Haileys masterpiece tree. She had a couple sips of egg nog, apple juice slushie and hot tea while listening to Christmas carols. She is nodding off, but is not willing to go back to bed. A true soldier, that you want on your side for sure!

Sweet dreams faithful army!
Pray On!
S

Settling In

She made it home without incident. We were totally prepared for any and all hurdles we might have to hop over, but with God as our pilot,there were none.
Brian, the kids, Matt, Erin, my mom and dad went and picked out a Christmas tree. They strapped it to my parents car and brought it home. The house smells sooooooo yummy. It definitely brought some much needed Christmas spirit. We hope to get her out to her favorite chair, get the holiday tunes pumpin and decorate a way with her observing the chaos;)
She is still battling the "yuckies" on and off, but at this moment is a 2 thumbs up.

Stand Strong Army Goodell!
Pray On!
S

Breakin Free!

It's about that time! She is happy to be leaving soon even though she knows the outcome. She just said in a low voice, "so hospice is official...that's exciting", I replied with "yep, gettin my pom poms out" and she chuckled. Before that, Papa went to Sonic to get 4 slushies...strawberry, watermelon, lemon-lime and diet vanilla coke Hip Hip Hooray! They did not sit well in her tummy but she was determined to have some of each regardless. Just enjoying that simple pleasure was worth getting sick in between.
I had been telling Robynn about the mini Sound Of Music concert Hailey and I gave Brady last night and on her way to the potty she started singing Doe a deer, a female deer, ray a drop of golden sun........and Brian, myself and her mom all joined in.
She is ready to roll, more later!

Pray On!
S

A Regretful Post

My Dearest Faithful Army Goodell,

We have been unsuccessful at getting Robynn's body to respond. It is obvious the cancer is overtaking her at a rapid rate. They will be getting her ready to come back home. Hospice will be at the house tomorrow to give instruction on the best ways to keep her comfortable.
Please know we did everything in our power to provide comfort and to accomplish her ultimate goal of getting back home.
What I type will never convey our gratitude for the constant vigil you have kept with prayer and action in Robynn's name. She was "in Awe' of your response and knows her journey would have ended long ago if not for all of you. I am still praying for a miracle as I know that is her only hope. No Dr or medication is a match for what Our Father has planned.
I want you to take comfort in our Lords plan, but understand if you can't at this moment. I would be dishonest if I told you I felt comforted.

Please understand our immense need for privacy. I will keep you updated, but we ask for no visits or phone calls. Brady and Hailey have not been made aware of this development so we ask that it not be addressed with your children if they attend OLG. We want Brian to be able to sit down with them in person.

I can't say anymore right now, I'm sorry.

Pray On!
S

PS Callahan finished reading Twilight to her yesterday

Psalm 91:11 For he will command his angels concerning you

The above verse is on an angel ornament that my friend Raji sent to Robynn. It hangs on her IV pole keeping constant watch. The words are not written on the angel, just the verse. I am not the bible scholar you might think and I had been meaning to look it up for a couple days and never found the time. As I sat hear watching her sleep, I took it down and decided to "google" the specific verse. As I read the words on BibleGateway.com, I was overwhelmed with emotion. This was the very verse I had chosen to put in Kelly's program's (after I received it from Robynn's Aunt Augie) in an attempt to comfort all who miss her so desperately. What perfect words to keep vigil for Our sweet girl. Sorry, I just had to share, because this is so NOT an accident.
Right now we are waiting on 2 more units of blood. She had an extremely miserable night filled with the nastiest of "yuckies". She seems to have overcome that bout and is finally resting. She is not allowed to eat or drink anything and she is protesting this when she is awake. As soon as she saw me she asked if I would get her a diet vanilla coke and I was thrilled to have her ask for something. I was ready to run as fast as I could to find one(keep in mind, I don't run;) and Brian says she knows she can't have one, but is still trying to pull a fast one...can't blame a girl for tryin!!! It is still unclear what needs to happen before she can go home. Some moments, I'd like to unhook her from everything, throw her over my shoulder and bolt down the hall and drive away with her. Not rational, I know, I'm over it...for now.
Back to some fonder memories. Yesterday Aunt Robynn got a solo performance from Tanner. He has chorus for an elective and they had their fundraiser Saturday night. So, as soon as she was able to see him, he sang the songs from his program to her. No one was allowed in the room, it was a private performance for his Aunt Robynn. What an amazing gift to her and a wonderful memory for Tanner...his Aunt Robynn bursting with joy and pride.
A Life experience, truly at its best!!!

I have more stories but want to get this posted, as I know you are all anxious. Things are very difficult, but I will keep you updated best I can.

Love you all!
Stand Strong!
Pray On!
S

Until Tomorrow...

She was a little more lucid this evening. We even took a lap around her floor in hopes of "gettin this party started" with her bowels;) I am in West Sac taking care of the kids and will return to the hospital after I get them off to school. I don't have any more reports about her health tonight, but have more stories about her day for you tomorrow....

Good Night Dear Warriors!
Pray On!
s