A Miracle in my Life

Jeremiah 20:18
"Why was I ever born? My entire life has been filled with trouble, sorrow, and shame."

This is where I am right now.
I am filled sadness, disbelief, uncertainty and aloneness.
My life has been filled with Kelly and all of her fabulous wonders for over 25 years.
She was my "Norma"(aka Rock). She was the one, that no matter how bad it got, no matter how deep the pit was you had fallen into, she made that pit not so bad. She didn't stand at the top of the pit and yell down encouragement to you, she jumped down into the pit with you and said, "how do we get out of this together".
I'm sure you all remember the post way, way back (Friday May, 9th) about me being "kidnapped". That was Kelly coming to another "pit rescue".
She came to Robynn's rescue with the idea and implementation of her Prayer Quilt. She worked so hard sewing each square ever so lovingly and requiring that it be "just perfect" for Robynn.
When their mom fought Ovarian and then breast cancer, Kelly and Brandy were there on the "front lines" praying, supporting and researching any and all options. Simply, that's just who Kelly was!

The helplessness I felt as we sat at the hospital Monday and Tuesday is excruciating. I wanted to jump in the pit to rescue her and I couldn't. Instead, I dropped to my knees in prayer and stared through the glass and watched in disbelief as my dear sweet friend left us.
I was there, I witnessed it and it is not real. "It is not happening, It has not happened, please give her back to me, we have a lunch/shopping date this Friday and I want her there, I've already got her Christmas gift wrapped, we were going on a cruise..." It makes it so hard to breathe. Devastation surrounds me. Dear Lord have Mercy on me!
More importantly, have mercy on her children Spencer(9) and Mason(6) (through them came her biggest sense of pride and accomplishment), her husband Bill, her parents Jim and Jeannie Brown, her siblings Brandy(Marty) and Matt, niece Ryan and nephews Joe and Johnny, her "Amma" and her dear friends Raji and Shannon. Have mercy on all who loved her and the lives that will never be the same because of her.

She was a miracle in my life and I believe she is God's "right hand woman". I know she will continue to watch over us and give us strength as we climb out of the deepest and darkest pit of our lives. Thank you my Dear, Sweet Girl!

Ephesians 2:8-9
For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith -- and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God -- not by works, so that no one can boast.

In total despair, I beg you to "Pray On"
S

Colossians 3:23-24
Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.