Restlessness has become our forefront enemy. She still battles nausea and vomiting, but not being able to find a way to get settled seems the most bothersome right now. She craves food and liquids even though she knows she can't keep them down. They increased her meds in hopes of getting her some mush needed rest. She did get a shower this morning and sat in her favorite chair while I did her make-up. Jamba juice was here when we finished and she was so excited. Didn't sit well, but we knew it wouldn't:(
Deuteronomy 7:9
Know therefore that the LORD your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commands.
Pray on!
S
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Good morning Bean,
I'm sorry to hear you can't find a comfortable place to settle, but glad your home none-the-less. Hope today brings more holiday cheer and cherished time with family.
I love you, miss you. Wish I weren't this far away right now. We're headed home soon.
xoxoxo
KerBear
Good morning my sweet girl, sorry you didn't rest well last night I guess i have to shout out my prayers, he's not listening. j/k.
I hope you get some rest today.
Maybe you should have brady make you some of his special pancakes he made me, but red of course for love.You know the ones that taste so much better from Mexico :)
love you bunches hope you have a peaceful day
I'm so sorry to hear that you are so restless! Are the Ativan (Lorazepam) and Haldol (Haloperidol) working for you at all? If not, don't hesitate to have someone to call the home health nurse to get a change of medication.
Love ya and hope you find some relief soon :) Lauressa
Dear Goodells:
Because of you, we love each other more, hold each other more tightly. What a precious gift you are to all of us! Thank you for sharing your incredibly difficult journey. We've learned so much from all of you - lessons of faith and love and strength, humor and compassion. To the other members of Army Goodell, please keep your candles lit for our dear Robynn. Ours is going strong in an Angel candle holder as we pray for comfort for Robynn and Brian, Brady, Hailey, and Shelly and the entire family.
Love,
The Bardins
Happy Wednesday Robynn-
Always a lady, making sure you are ready for the day!:) I have been reading all of the comments, monitoring the blog minute by minute and checking in with my sister, Denise and the West Sac Momma Mafia :)and I feel such a tremendous surge of love. Nobody knows how to react, respond or even plan for a journey like this. You have lead by example with the tremendous strength and grace. I believe you will continue to have peace and will receive comfort physically as well as spiritually everyday. Yes, there is science and medicine, but I choose faith and the power of our sweet Savior as the answer for everything! Prior to your blog and diagnosis, my mom had given me a new bible. This is a bible version that makes an easier read and understanding. She had written down a list of scriptures that she reads daily and prays over our family. The bible traveled with me to Nashville and back to Sacramento and remains on my nightstand. Early this year, I looked at my bible and prayed that the Lord would lead me to His word and that I would gain knowledge and be a student of scripture. Low and behold, everyday, on your blog, I see scriptures! I have kept a running list of them in my work planner and have transferred those that touched me to my bible. The other night, I picked up my bible and was lead to a scripture my mom gave me.
Colossions 1:11&12
"We also pray that you will be strengthened with His glorious power so that you will have all the patience and endurance you need. May you be filled with joy, always thanking the Father who has enabled you to share the inheritance that belongs to God's holy people who live in the light."
This is for you my sweet! I pray this scripture and claim it over you and your family.
You continue to shine your light in the face of adversity with grace and poise. You continue to fight and inspire, because as I have learned over this past year, that is how you roll! Thanks for being a leader. :) I celebrate the many blessing you have received and will continue to recieve as a blessing is defined as: God's devine favor.
I remember singing songs in church as a little girl and this one seems to stand out for me..so I sing it to myself "This is the day, this is the day that the Lord has made, that the Lord has made. I will rejoice, I will rejoice and be glad in it". Be glad Robynn and rejoice in today.
Enjoy the treats of the holiday, family, friends, and the food! :)
I'll check on you later.
Live Strong
Stand Strong
Always,
Kellie Stroud :)
Morning. I bet she looks beautiful w/ Shelley's makeup job. I pray you get to enjoy some more delicious beverages, food, and most importantly, FAMILY TIME. I will continue to pray for a miracle. I know God is listening to Army Goodell!
Hey Girl,
I so wish you were able to have something to eat and drink without it coming back up. Having an appetite and not being able to satisfy it really STINKS! I am off work today. I sent Ellie to daycare anyway. I needed to do some gift wrapping and cleaning without her here. She is a nut, I tell ya. Her latest "thing" is reciting commercials. I promise she doesn't watch TV all day long. She just has a really good memory and an incredible vocabulary. Her favorite one goes... "When I retire, I'm years away from Medicare. But, I still need protection. What if something sererious happens?" Will and I just scratch our heads. When she is not being funny, she is being a stinker. Every once in a while, she will grace us with a little kindness and even some cooperation. We are always pleasently suprised. I know you said Brady had a rough couple of toddler years and he is such a sweet loving boy now. We are hoping the same is in store for little miss Ellie Sophia. Well, that's it for now. I have to get back to that gift wrapping.
I love ya girl!
Tonya
Good Morning Young Lady
This is my favorite poem, it works for me in so many ways maybe it will help you and those around you.
Footsteps
One night I dreamed a dream.
I was walking along the beach with my Lord. Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonging to me and one to my Lord.
When the last scene of my life shot before me I looked back at the footprints in the sand. There was only one set of footprints. I realized that this was at the lowest and saddest times of my life. This always bothered me and I questioned the Lord about my dilemma.
"Lord, You told me when I decided to follow You, You would walk and talk with me all the way. But I'm aware that during the most troublesome times of my life there is only one set of footprints. I just don't understand why, when I need You most, You leave me."
He whispered, "My precious child, I love you and will never leave you, never, ever, during your trials and testings. When you saw only one set of footprints, It was then that I carried you."
I pray for your comfort daily.
R. Garcia
Robynn,
I hope you can find a medication that can allow you to not have the "yuckies" so you can enjoy some of your cravings. I hope you are able to have some good snuggle time with Brian, Brady and Hailey. That is what I hope for yu for today. One day at a time...
Shelley, Please call me if you need to talk....I know I am not that great at listening or giving advice....WOW, doesn't that make you want to call? At least just know that you are so in our hearts and we wish we could be there for you...just like you were there for all of us in the hospital with Kelly. You mean so much to us...what can we do from here? Anything...
Hug, hug, hug.....(three squeezes)
In our thoughts,
Brandy
I'm sorry you had a rough night. I wish you could enjoy your time home better and eat or drink whatever you wished. I hope today is more comfortable.I pray you end up having a feel good wednesday. All my love,
M ox
Again, this morning, another "light bulb" moment from your blog. I can't tell you how many times I have left the house with no make up just because I really didn't care, and here you are, in the midst of this struggle - getting your makeup done! What a wonderful gift from Shelley! Yesterday I shared your story with the palliative care nurse in my office (I work for the cancer program at Mercy San Juan). She in turn went home and shared with her husband and they figured out that he is Brian's new boss at work! What a small world, its amazing how God intertwines our lives. I pray that you find peace and comfort in that chair!
Dawn (Hanna) Lenakakis
Ahh...a shower, some lip gloss and a Jamba Juice...a magical combination (and quite possibly what the three wise men meant to present on that morning so long ago). Have a WONDERFUL day - baby, it's cold outside but the sun, it' be shining for you, girl!
Hi Friend,
Know that you are very loved! We are praying that you get the rest that you need to fight the good fight. Enjoy the time with your family.
Love you lots.
Rebekah (&J.T. and Jacob)
P.S.-We're still waiting for Mateo to make his appearance! He's too cozy in my belly! :)
Praying for peace and comfort for you dear Robynn, and strength and comfort for all of your wonderful family. I can picture you in your chair with little Mousse on your lap. Enjoying the sounds and smells of Christmas and your wonderful family around you.Hope you get some good rest.Shelley I pray for your strength and thank you for all that you do.
Hi Robynn,
I just wanted to say I love you, Bean! I feel like I can't say much as sad as I am. I do want you to know, I'll cherish the wonderful memories I have of the many great times we shared. I look forward to the day when we'll all be together again.
I hope you can get some rest and hold down some food!
Thank you again Shelley for keeping us up to date.
Love always,
Kristy Ware
Still thinking of you and wishing you much needed comfort. Bless you for being such an inspiration to us all.
Lots of love to you and your family-
Sara M.
Yesterday I enlisted in Army Goodell and I will continue to pray for a miracle, for your comfort, for you to be able to get the rest you need and for you to be able to enjoy the foods that you crave. Praying hard for you and your family, Lord HEAR my prayers!!!!
Robynn and Shelley-
Today was my turn for yard duty at the school. I took my camera to get some shots for the 1st Grade Newsletter. But once I saw Hailey, I realized what a great gift it would be for you to have memorialized " A Day in the Life of Hailey at School". So I ran around snapping pics of her at P.E at lunch and at recess.
At first, I am sure she thought who is this crazy lady following me around, but then I thought "ah ha" and told her and her friends, This is for the Newsletter, and you would not believe how fast her and her friends fell into pose! It was fantastic. So I got some great shots I want to share... I tried to add to this post, but I am technology challenged. Shelley, if you would like to email me at
rutapeach10@yahoo.com I would be more than thrilled to send.
D'Niece Hall
Robynn, it makes me good to know you have so many people who love you around you. If they are not there they are writing on this blog everday letting you know how much you are loved.
As always you look amazing!!! Keep enjoying the smell of the Christmas tree, the lights, and most importantly the family around you!
Love you and always thinking of you! Amber & family BIG HUGS AND KISSES!
P.S. Heard Chicken Fry earlier and boy I can not sing but I was singing very loud just for you!!!
Love bug, I am thinking of you and love you so much. Dina
Robynn,
Thought I'd take a short break here at work to say I'm thinking of you and still praying for your comfort. Lovin' you real large girl!
- Choc Chip (CC)
you go girl! i am so proud of you and your perserverance. let the warmth and joy of the holiday season wrap its arms around you and provide you the healing comforts you need. i will be "passing the hat" for you tonight at JMPPNS xmas party in hopes to beef up that housekeeping fund. i have had a couple of donations from people you don't even know! how awesome is that!! i am also bringing some markdown items to sell for your fundraiser so KNOW that i am doing EVERYTHING i can to help you guys. i love you lots!
dana killian
Robynn,
Love and prayers!!! Big hugs from afar! You mean so much to all of us and that will never change.
I leave another repeat message from our dear Kelly....
"You are such a special angel in everyone's life you enter, Shel! I too have had the honor of your encouragement and support when my mom was diagnosed with cancer on 2 separate occasions. Your love and support and unwavering faith are the link that holds us all together in this fight. Because of you we have all become ONE BIG ROBYNN FAMILY! Thanks for your gift, we all hang on your words and feel so connected because of you! I cannot even imagine how difficult it must be sometimes.
I love you my dear friend!"
Kelly H.
Just as I am, without one plea
But that Thy blood was shed for me,
And that Thou bidd'st me come to Thee,
O Lamb of God, I come. I come.
Just as I am, and waiting not
To rid my soul of one dark blot,
To Thee whose blood can cleanse each spot,
O Lamb of God, I come. I come.
Just as I am tho' tossed about
With many a conflict, many a doubt,
Fightings within and fears without
O Lamb of God, I come. I come.
Just as I am, poor wretched blind;
Sight, riches, healing of the mind,
Yea, all I need in Thee I find,
O Lamb of God, I come. I come.
Just as I am, Though wilt receive
Wilt welcome, pardon, cleanse, relieve,
Because Thy promise I believe,
O Lamb of God, I come. I come.
Just as I am, Thy love unknown
Hath broken every barrier down;
Now to be Thine, yea, Thine alone,
O Lamb of God, I come. I come.
Sweet Robynn, Though you have not made your wonderful journey yet, I feel led to give you these words so that you may be comforted by the promises of Our Heavenly Father.
Dear faithful friend be strong in your weakness and blessed in your trials. Keep loving and being loved. I miss seeing your smiling face and I am only comforted by the thought that we shall meet again in Heavens glory. I promise to be wearing the jeans you picked for me. (ha, thought that would make you smile) I love you sweet girl. Keep holding on until He calls you home. With all my Love,
By His Grace, Aimee
I am thinking about you every moment! I hope you can get comfortable and get some rest. Enjoy every moment you have with Brian, Hailey and Brady and family. I miss you and love you so much.
Love Always ~ Wendi (breezy)
Hi Sweet Robynn.. Nono & I are thinking of you today.. We lit the advent wreath last night and we both thought of you, your the light in so many lives, because of your strength and courage you bring us all hope during this advent season.. The light of Christ..We ask our Lord to bring you comfort, no more Yukies, and that you get your much needed rest.. We pray for you every night in front of the advent wreath and we thank God for your beautiful family that are there for you everyday.. "Many are the women of proven worth, but you have excelled them all." We love you, as always you are in our prayers & thoughts every moment.. Nono & Noni (Norma & Leroy)
I just found your blog and wanted to let you know what a beautiful family you have. By reading h comments, it sounds like you have so many fans, so many adorers. It sounds like your journey has been a long one, and I wish you and your family nothing but peace and comfort. You are fighting the fight, honey!
Hey Pretty Ladey!
I have spent too much time staring at the screen, attempting to muster up the words to express my feelings. Although I realize that my feeling are not unique and I am in no way eloquent with my words(in fact..after reading the beautiful entries I've been tempted to say "Ditto"), I will simply say:
THANK YOU..for your friendship, the good times, your sense of humor, the life lessons(that I will try everyday to honor them), the proof the the Lord does hear our prayers, your loving hugs, and your warm smile.
when I get too sad, I remind myself of the time that we all went to the movies to see "House Bunny". We were sharing sour-patch kids, and looked at you and noticed that you were singing all the words to "'when I Grow Up" by the PussyCat Dolls, you looked at me with that smile and said "I just love this song!" I will now add that song to my music library!I love You!
I pray for your peace and comfort.
Brian- I pray for your peace and comfort too. I can only imagine what you must be feeling. Thank you for example of strength and compassion as a human being, wonderful husband, and father(Robynn has shared some stories)You are amazing.
Enjoy this BEAUTIFUL sun shiny day together.
XOXOXOXOXOXO, Denise Mayberry
Hey Robynn! How about that! A decorated tree to enjoy. Such a wonderful time of the year. Resting by the tree, drinking in all the lovely smells, enjoying the love of your family, and the warmth the Christmas holiday brings. I wish you and your family all the best! Keep fighting girl. Your strength is amazing! Much Love, Gaye
Robynn,
You and your family are constantly in my thoughts and prayers. I feel so honored and blessed to have been able to spend time with you (even if it was only a few times) and see what a wonderful and courageous person you are. You have made me a better person just by following your example of faith and strength. I pray so hard that you are able to enjoy your family and this wonderful time together. God bless you.
Libby and family
Robynn,
You and the rest of your family are in our thoughts constantly. I wish I had more to say, but I am truly at a loss for words (this is a really rare thing for me ;))Your incredible spirit and optimistic attitude are truly inspiring.
Love,
Lindsay
My sweet Robynn,
I am writting early since it is the pre-school's Christmas party and I will be sharing our love and hope for you with all of your friends.I will be thinking of how it was when you were there and that brings me happiness of all the good times we shared(which I have tucked away in my heart)
I thought about how you live your life in and with your kiddos and how Hailey was not afraid of my stinky,muddy hogs and how we all loved that time together-you letting her experience life in every way-how lucky they are to have you.(just loving these memories)
I am praying in hope and love for you to be comfortable and to have much more favorite chair time soaking in the Christmas season.
Keep your eyes upwards.
Brian and Shelley plese be good to yourselves as we all need you and Shelley thank you again sooooo very much for your faithfullness to us with the blog posts,you are an Angel.
I love you all,
Soilder Miss Denise
mmm.. you just made me crave jamba juice =D
Hi Robynn and Family ~
I'm with Denise - some of these posts are so beautiful! And Amber, sharing about the Chicken Fry song - so funny as Des just asked me to add that to her ipod :) She's becoming quite the country music girl these days! Taylor Swift is her girl!
This afternoon I went to Ty's first grade class after school to create gingerbread houses for tomorrow's big celebration. Kanika and I did them together and talked about you a little bit! She is sending her love and best wishes as well! I came home only to find that the Robynn ribbon magnets I had pulled for "customers" were up all over our fridge!!! Compliments of Destiny of course!
We missed not having you and Hailey at Bridgeway this year as we had a fun two years with you girls, but OLG got blessed with your presence instead and that's okay - I guess we can share!
I want you to know that I truly enjoyed our "fellow active mom" friendship and always enjoyed our field trips ~ it's a special thing to share with other moms and it's such a joy watching these kiddos grow! We always discussed how lucky we were to have had Mrs. Brown for our kids and the whole JM experience (yeah JM!) and then to get Mrs. Belk - we were so lucky! I remember when little Seth fell in love with you the day that our kindergarten class went to as you called it the "thee-a-tah" (very fancy!) to see the Christmas play. You were dressed accordingly (unlike most of us moms) and it's no wonder he fell so hard! I'm thankful that I took pictures at all of those events and you are in all of them! And yes, people, I'm more than willing to share :)
I'm sorry that we never got our scrapbooking date - darn it! But I'm honored to have helped in creating one for you! The girls and I truly created it with love and I know you felt it! If you have any scrapbooking page desires or wishes, you tell Shelley, and the girls and I will follow up for you! We all know you guys did a lot this year (scrapworthy of course)- good for YOU!!!
Thank you for personally creating my mom's special Hayjac bracelet. It is her prized posession and it's even more special because of who made it! I still remember when you delivered it to me at BWI. You were excited because you were on the ball and had the perfect Christmas card picture... the one we would all come to see a lot - the pretty family picture from the wedding you guys were involved in - and I agree with you, it's a great picture! Come late January we will be needing to add a name to mom's bracelet as my brother's second baby is coming! I'll be on top of that one!
I hope I have not taken too much room but just wanted you to know how much I care about you and how thankful I am to have special memories that you were a part of :)
Thank you for being you ~ you are quite a girl!
:)
Love,
Kim :)
Here's hoping you have a good night tonight- sleep tight darlin'. Feel wrapped in our love.
Robynn,
Tammy and I are thinking of you and praying for you, hoping that you can be comfortable, sitting in your favorite chair, enjoying your favorite foods, while Brian, Brady and Hailey entertain you or envelope you with their love. Sleep tight tonight and sweet dreams!
James & Tammy Coghill
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