Monday, December 15, 2008

A Regretful Post

My Dearest Faithful Army Goodell,

We have been unsuccessful at getting Robynn's body to respond. It is obvious the cancer is overtaking her at a rapid rate. They will be getting her ready to come back home. Hospice will be at the house tomorrow to give instruction on the best ways to keep her comfortable.
Please know we did everything in our power to provide comfort and to accomplish her ultimate goal of getting back home.
What I type will never convey our gratitude for the constant vigil you have kept with prayer and action in Robynn's name. She was "in Awe' of your response and knows her journey would have ended long ago if not for all of you. I am still praying for a miracle as I know that is her only hope. No Dr or medication is a match for what Our Father has planned.
I want you to take comfort in our Lords plan, but understand if you can't at this moment. I would be dishonest if I told you I felt comforted.

Please understand our immense need for privacy. I will keep you updated, but we ask for no visits or phone calls. Brady and Hailey have not been made aware of this development so we ask that it not be addressed with your children if they attend OLG. We want Brian to be able to sit down with them in person.

I can't say anymore right now, I'm sorry.

Pray On!
S

PS Callahan finished reading Twilight to her yesterday

76 comments:

Anonymous said...

I have written a comment three times and erased it for I am at a loss for words. My heart just dropped to my stomach while reading the last entry. Our sweet angel...I dont know what to say but you are loved.

Anonymous said...

Our hearts are breaking for all of you. Peace be with you.
Love, Mary and Doug

Sheryl said...

feel like my breath has been taken away. there are no words. but know that this stranger in michigan is praying.

His ways are SO different than our ways.

Anonymous said...

I feel the same way Carrie does. My heart aches. Words cannot express...
Love,
Barley

christine Booth said...

I have denied this post since I heard the news. I have visited Brian, Robynn and the children and can only see Robynn dancing and singing to me in her car (stronger). I am at a lose for words and sick to my stomach. I just want her to feel no pain and to see her smile. I believe our father has a plan and I know she wont hurt anymore, but I can't see this world without that amazing smile, so as you I will pray for a miracle. Please kiss her and tell her I love her and remind her as she has always told me... keep fighting. sweet dreams sweet girl and I pray that when you return home your comfortable and peaceful.
I love you.
Brian, I pray for you, brady and Haley. I know this talk will be the hardest thing, but your an amazing father and the words will come just the way you and Robynn have talked about. Stay strong love you guys

Anonymous said...

We love you Robynn. My eyes are flooded with tears knowing Shelley that you wanted/we wanted you to be able to post something different.We keep sending our prayers as you all take on the hardest part of this journey.

Hugs, Darcy

Anonymous said...

Robynn Brian and others,
We will not give up. But we understand that the Lord has a bigger plan. He has utalized Robynn in ways that I have never seen before. Robynn your life in and of itself with your heart are a miricle and a testament to so many. Though this is hard to say you have accomplished so much in this strugle and for that we lift you up and commend you. Rest now and know that you are loved by many and you have touched the lives of many more.

Unknown said...

I too am at a loss for the right words right now. But please let Robynn know that she is constantly in my thoughts. And that we love her so much!!

Cousin Molly & Scott

Anonymous said...

I'm am so sorry words just can't express the sadness in my soul. What a special gift she is to all of us and what a wonderful life lesson Robynn and Brian have taught us on true love and devotion.
Shelley, thanks for always "STANDING STRONG" my heart goes out to you and the whole family. All my love

Tami

Anonymous said...

Sweet, sweet Goodell family,

If love could heal, I have no doubt that Robynn would have been cured long ago. My heart is absolutely breaking for you all, especially Brady and Hailey. I hope you can feel the pure and consuming love all around you. I will continue to pray for Robynn and her Christmas miracle, for she is a true angel on Earth.

Shelley, your beautiful writings this past year have inspired me, made me laugh, made me cry, and most of all, helped me become a more faithful person. Your words will be a source of comfort for a long time to all who know Robynn and her family (and those who don't, too).

Brian, you couldn't possibly be a more loving, doting, or precious husband and father. I pray for your peace and healing.

Robynn, you're such a fighter. You have touched countless hearts and inspired people whom you've never even met. You may never truly know the impact you've had on so many lives. You are loved and admired more than you could imagine.

Love, love, and so much love to all of you!!!

Anonymous said...

Shelley,
You've just posted one of those posts you hoped you'd never have to write. I'm sorry for you. I'm sorry for all of you.
But just let me be clear for all of us. First of all Goodell Family, you are WELCOME from all of us. All of us. Whatever each one of us has done or written or whatever - you are welcome.
But moreover, we are all thankful to you for sharing this big challenge with us. Thank you for sharing such a very personal experience - your personal lives - with all of us.
Robynn and Family. Do you know how easy it was to get people to help with the blood drive? Any idea? People wanted so badly to be a part of the team and to help in some way. There was no begging or pushing, etc. Instead there were emails from people asking us to not forget them, or to be sure they were added to our email lists - everyone loves you and wanted to help in whatever way they could!
Do you have any idea how much it meant for all of the people who planned, helped with, or attended your other fundraisers? It meant a lot.
We all love you guys - we all thank you for letting us be a part of Robynn's experience.
Thank you for sharing your family with us.
With love and tears,
Kim

Anonymous said...

Tonight I will pray for Brady and Hailey because I feel like that's what she'd want me to do.

christine Booth said...

I have to thank you "S" for all your updates. You truly are an amazing women and I thank you for all you have done. Your words on a dail basis have been so touching and comforting even at the worst moments. Callahan finishing that book for your aunt Robynn will for sure be a memorie that will last a life time and If I know Robynn she will fall asleep hearing your voice. I pray for comfort for each and everyone of you.

Anonymous said...

Oh Brian, if I could jump through this screen and wrap my arms around you...I would in a heartbeat. Sheeley...hold on to your brother...to you whole family. Selfishly we want to ask for more time...I know that feeling. I will not go on, but my heart is hurting so much for all of you....I know Kelly is with you all as well. Just keep loving!
I love you guys...so much. I love you Miss Robynn.
B.

Anonymous said...

We can light the way...the way home for Robynn, the way to find the the right words for Brian, the way for Brady and Hailey to hear only love in Brian's voice, the way for family to close their eyes and smile through tears as Robynn would do, the way for Army Goodell to reach out...we can light the way one candle/luminary at a time.

Light a candle to bring light and warmth knowing it is God's love that makes the flame bright, the warmth of the flame are HIS arms stretched out to hold us, the dancing flame HIS sign that through HIM, with HIM, and in HIM we live forever. Army Goodell light a candle and stand strong together.

Anonymous said...

Dear Robynn,
Thank you for being a great teacher to all of us. May God wrap his arms around you and your family. I'll Pray for a MIRACLE. Love, Debbie

Anonymous said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you Brian as you find the words to say to your children. Shelly, thank you for have the strengh to relaying this update. I can't even imagine how hard it has been for you to make these posts. Love to all of you.

Alexis Kuhl

Anonymous said...

I believe there are angels among us - brought down to us - from somewhere up above - they come to you and me in our darkest hours....

Anonymous said...

Hail Mary Full Of Grace the Lord Is With You Robynn

I am asking God to give Brian all his strength when he sits down with Brady & Hailey.
Shelley, I wish I could make this all go away for you & your family. My heart also goes out to Robynn's family.

Silent Night, Holy Night, All Is Calm...

Love & Prayers,
Tina

Anonymous said...

Thank you for all your prayers it is with a deep heart and tears that I write this. We must lift Robynn high and her Family Brian, Brady and Hailey for the hardest part has just begun. Robynn is a beautiful person with a heart of gold. She has left a lasting impression on so many that she knows and so many others that she will probably never meet. I recall a time when I was talking with my brother Sean about what it means to die and his words stick with me still this day. "you will be remembered for the Legacy that you leave behind". Out of all of the people that I have known Robynn is the pinicale of a Legacy. Throughout this entire ordeal Robynn lived as we all should with Love of the Lord and her family and friends. Please hold them close to your heart with continued prayer.

Thank you and God Bless

Anonymous said...

Robynn and the entire Goodell family,
You have been such an inspiration to friends and strangers all over the country. Your journey has been a reminder to keep the faith and to embrace what is truly important in this life. You all are loved so much and are lifted up in prayer by ALL of Army Goodell. We wish you peace and comfort.

Anonymous said...

Yes-Lets light the way Army Goodell,
I to agree with Kim that it has been easy-so very easy to help and support you-WILLINGNESS I have to say stands out strong.
My tears are of love and hope for you my dear sweet Robynn.I pray for your peace and to be pain free-I know that this is the hardest part of your amazing fight.FIGHT-that is what we will continue to do and to stand in gap and PRAY and LIFT you up.
My dear Shelley hold tight to your faith and in turn hold onto Brian,Hailey and Brady and the rest of the family.You are so tender and strong and how lucky we all are to have you.
Brian you are the husband that we all have witnessed taking the most tender care of our girl and I thank you for your love story and example.
I humbly come before you and want you to know I am a better person because of you my Sweet Robynn.
I love you all from the depths of my soul,
Soilder Miss Denise

Anonymous said...

I've been looking at this web page for about 2 hours now. I don't know what to say. My heart is broken.
Robynn, this world is a better place with you in it. You are one of those people that make this world worth living in. You are the most wonderful, the sweetest, happiest, most beautiful person inside and out. You have fought like a true champion. I am so proud to call you a friend. I love you so very much and wish and pray with all my heart that a miracle is granted us.

I'm so sorry everyone. Love to all,
Kristy Ware and family

Tonya Sandoval said...

Brian,
I am sitting here finding it hard to breath let alone come up with the right words to post. I pray for Robynn's comfort in the days to come. I will pray for your strength as well. I know that your family will be there to wrap you up with love and support. The entire extended Goodell Family will be in our constant thoughts and prayers. We love you.
Tonya Sandoval & Family

Lois said...

I continue to pray...with you and for you...all. I am praying for Robynn's comfort and peace.

God will take care of you and your beautiful family. Wrap yourself up in their love and our love...

I do believe in miracles.

I LOVE YOU BEAUTIFUL...!!!

Blowing kisses your way!
Lois

Anonymous said...

When you have the strength, please tell us what we can do to help ease your burden. Until then, we're in constant prayer. Love to you all!

Anonymous said...

As I sit at my computer with tears streaming down my cheeks, I pray for all of you. You all have taught us as a family to be a little more Thankful for each and every day that we are given. Robynn is truly an amazing women in my eyes. She has inspired so many, and amazed us all at times most would have given up. Tonight I will pray for Brady and Haley as they are the ones that need it most right now. Knowing that God will light the way is great comfort to me.
Proudly supporting ARMY Godell
Darren & Karen

Anonymous said...

Brian give my friend a hug and a kiss and tell her thank you for believing in me. Brian, Hailey and Bradey you hold a very special place in my heart. I will ALWAYS be here for you!

Big Hugs~ Victoria

Anonymous said...

And in the same way the Spirit also helps our weaknesses; for we do not know how to pray as we should, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words; and He who searches the hearts knows what the mind of the Spirit is, because He intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. (Romans 8:26-27)

Anonymous said...

Like everyone I am also at a loss for words and my eyes are filled with tears. I think we all probably agree with "Kim" and thank you all for allowing us to be a part of your family, your army. We've learned so much about this wonderful family, this WONDERFUL woman, it feels as if I'm losing one of my own blood. I guess in some ways we have all become one. It just won't be the same without Robynn and in so many ways she'll still be with her with each and every one of us. I pray that Brian and the kids are all okay and I'm sure Brian knows how much support he has at OLG, within his family and his community. Shelley I hope in some way you're still able to keep Robynn's blog going so we can watch these beautiful kids grow and make their Mommy so proud. My heart breaks for all of you.

Anonymous said...

I have never met Robynn nor have I met Brian. I learned of her fight through my very best friend. Her strength and courage has been an inspiration to me. She has taught me to pray again and for the first time that I can remember I prayed for someone other than myself. I believe our Father Places people like her on this earth to teach/remind people like me about life. I have not the words of comfort that my heart feels.

Brain when you speak to your children about their Mother; tell them of the souls she saved. For she is truly one of his Angels.

R. Garcia

Debbie Doo said...

I am so very saddened by the news, my prayers continue but I know they are little comfort at this time.

Anonymous said...

Goodell Family:

We pray for God to give you all strength through these tough times and comfort in the knowledge of the great bond of love your family shares. We hope God grants Robynn some peace and a respite from the battle. Take care all, we will be holding you all in our thoughts and our hearts.

Michelle & Katie Rinehart

Anonymous said...

My prayer for you Robynn is that you recieve comfort in being home and get to have some precious momements with your husband and kids. For Brian I pray for your continued strength as you talk to your kids. I will pray Peace be with all of you and your family. Heather

Anonymous said...

There are no words and no reasons for this, for our Robbi is an angel on this earth. And, if no miracle is to come, surely our lord is in dire need of perfect souls in his kingdom...and for that I am greatly saddened! We will continue with our prayers and hopeful thoughts not only for Brian, Haley and Brady...but for all of us who love her so much. May God bring her peace and comfort as we continue to pray for a miracle. If there is a word for her...it is love. Rest sweet girl and know we are...and always will be with you. Pat, Syl, Kernan and Liam. xoxoxoxoxoxox

Unknown said...

Those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
Isaiah 40:31

I am asking the Lord to pick you up, and help you all to soar on wings like eagles. Robynn would want it that way. Even though I can not deny that we are feeling so horribly sad Robynn, (I am sobbing and can barely see my keyboard to type.) I can not help but feel incredibly blessed to be a part of this Army, Your Army. Brain, and Shelley, He is carrying you and your family right now. May His Spirit over flow through each of you and May you feel His presence. May His comfort reach deep so you truly soak in His covering. Take it in. He is weeping with us. You have never been alone in this, He is with you now, and will continue to be for as long as you wish. Robynn, I love you, I love your family, and we will continue to be here for you and them. It has been your faith that has opened the eyes and ears of so many, it will continue through your husband and in the words, tears and hugs he shares with your children. You have always been so proud of your family; and we share in your pride for them as well. We are all so proud of you too. You have fought the good fight and will receive everlasting victory. Have I told you lately how much you inspire me? Love you friends.

And when the Chief Sheppard appears, you will receive the crown of glory that will never fade away.
1 Peter 5:4
(And as always you will be beautiful.)

Lord, we seek your Guardian Angels to stand guard over the Goodells right now and through the night. Bring us JOY in the morning as Robynn will be home where she longs to be. In Jesus name we pray. Amen.

Anonymous said...

Dear Goodell Family,
I am at a lost for words right now. Please whisper to Robynn that I love her. My heart bleeds with sadness. I will never stop believing in miracles, because Robynn gave all of us the experience of a miracle by allowing us to be "touched by an angel". God, please help us!

Anonymous said...

"Let not your hearts be troubled; believe in God, believe also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, would I have told you that I go to prepare a place for you? And when I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and will take you myself, that where I am you may be also. And you know the way where I am going"
John 14:1-4

Anonymous said...

The tears just won't stop. I know that it is so selfish of me, but I can't help it. I don't want to be at such a loss for words, but I don't know what to say.

I hope being at home brings some comfort and the peace you so much deserve.

Please know that we're here for your family Robynn. The entire "army" will be there to support Brian, Brady & Hailey with anything they need throughout their lives.

Thank you for all you've done in our lives. Thank you for being the wonderful, beautiful person you are. You will be in our hearts forever......

I love you,

Michelle H.

Anonymous said...

It's OK Robynn, It's OK to end your pain, although we pray for the miracle;
You have immense comfort and peace in knowing your 2 babies will be well loved by the most wonderful man who ever walked among us;
NO words will ever describe what you will always mean to all of us who are blessed to know you, and, to know about you;

Know that we will always...
Persevere with your courage;
Dance with your joy;
Laugh with your smile;
Love with your warmth;
Hold our family with your affection;
We pray for a miracle as you are our miracle;
bless your heart, bless your heart, for giving us all of this

Anonymous said...

Robynn~
I have been following your blog regularly for many months although this is the first time to leave you a note. I have also been keeping up on your journey through Raina. You are an incredible person, mother and wife. Reading about your strength through this journey inspires me. It is obvious that you have touched so many lives and hearts, and some that you may never know.
As my heart breaks, my thoughts and prayers are with you for comfort and peace and with your beautiful family.
~Kim Nunn

Anonymous said...

Robynn, its five in the morning and Im still numb. Sleep is out of the question. What will the day bring. You know how I feel about you and I just wanted to thank you for being my friend. Thanks for all the texts, calls, coffees, soccer practices, bus stop favors, walks, runs, book sharing,trick or treating, water parking, recipe sharing, breakfasts and buncos. We never had our downtime library day and hey, you haven't color coordinated my closet! Thanks for luv-ing me. I hope I can tell you this in person, if not, I hope someone reads this to you, if thats not possible, well I said it. I miss you so much already. Luv you my friend, Sue

Anonymous said...

Our Dearest Robynn,
God is our Shepard. He oversees us. You are one of His special angels. A chosen one. He will keep you protected. You are in His care. This part of your journey saddens me to no end. One thing I know for sure though, is that God will not forsake us. To your family, STAND STRONG. God's with you. May you be comforted in knowing that we all appreciate your sharing the events of this battle with us, and allowing all our lives to truly have been touched by an angel. Please whisper to Robynn how much I love her.
- Choc Chip

Anonymous said...

Dear Brian, Brady & Hailey-and Shelly too:
Your family is in our families' thoughts and prayers as you go through this extremley difficult time..I am so sorry that Robynn is in the pain she is in, and I am hoping that she will find comfort in being surrounded by her loving family.
To Robynn: you are a beautiful lady and I am so sorry that you are going through this..I hope your pain eases and I am glad that you have had the love and support from your friends and family this past year. As Shelly has said so many times-"Pray on!" and we will continue to do that for you!!

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you constantly and praying for you always.

Love, Kristen Wetzel

Anonymous said...

Just wanted you all to know how much we love you.
The Oxfords

Anonymous said...

Shelley thank you for all you have done. Our prayers are with you, Brian, Brady, & Hailey. And Robynn of course,I will forever picture you "Dancing in the rain".

melriz said...

Bean,

I have been sitting here staring at my computer for I don't know how long, not knowing what to say. I want to thank you Bean. With out you I would never have reconnected with Rob. I would not be on the path I am now with him, one I never thought I would be on. I will never forget that!

I just want you to have no more pain and to be at peace.

Brian, Hailey and Brady
My heart aches for you three, I can't express how much.

Bean, I love you!
Melissa (Missy) Risberg

Anonymous said...

---My heart is filled with compassion, for Shelley keeping us informed & for trying to a source of comfort & strength for Brian.

For Brian who has been attempting to keep holiday time as normal as possible during this time of frequent hospital visits & be of love & strength for Robynn,Brady & Hailey.

And, Sweet Robynn who has been courageously been battling the constant yuckies, fighting thru the pain & discomfort to see the Christmas lights on Rodeo drive, & managing to visit Uncle Sonny and spreading her light,love & grace to all of us who's lives she has touched and strangers whom have never met her but her light radiates such warmth,love and pure grace we all feel so honored to have had our paths cross.

Our prayers are ongoing...there is no reason to cease praying...Family Goodell still needs to feel supported,comforted,loved,and lifted up for continued strength during this time at home.

With all of our heart, soul & might we send our love, prayers, & peace on your hearts!

Love,
Jill & Bob West

Anonymous said...

Sending our love to the Hansen/Goodell's this morning. God's holy spirit is there to help you bear more than you thought possible as you care for your Robyyn.

That sudden calm and certainty you feel in the middle of everything, is Him helping you. Even if it feels fleeting, He'll give you enough to continue.


Campos/Miner family

Anonymous said...

Robynn, you have done so much for so many people in your life, but this past year has been your testament for thousands of people who perhaps have never had much faith or grace in their lives until now. You have marched to God's orders so faithfully.
We all want to be like you...I will buy Twilight and grab a diet vanilla coke and think of you through tears because of your inspiring faith and strength.
As another post stated, His ways are SO NOT like our ways, but I take some comfort that all of us will see each other again shining in our glorious, peaceful, new healthy, pain-free bodies with our Creator.
God Bless you.
Barb

Anonymous said...

Sweet, sweet Robynn......
I love you..

"..Fly, fly- little wing
Fly beyond imagining
The softest clouds,the whitest dove
upon the wind of heavens love
past the planets and the stars
leave this lovely world of ours
escape the sorrow and the pain
and fly again.

Fly, fly precious one
your endless journey has begun
take your gentle happiness
far too beautiful for this
cross over to the other shore
There is peace forever more
but hold this memory bittersweet
until we meet.

Fly, fly, do not fear
don't waste a breath,
don't shed a tear
Your heart is pure,
your soul is free
Be on your way, don't wait for me
above the universe you will climb
on beyound the hands of time
The moon will rise,
the sun will set....
And I wont forget.

Fly, fly little wing
fly where only angels sing
fly away, the time is right
Go now...Find the light."

Love for Robynn, Brian, Hailey and Brady.
Stina

Anonymous said...

Oh Dear Goodells...

I don't know what to say really. You are loved by so many. Our hearts break for you. I cannot fathom what you all must be going through right now. I just beg you to know that YOU ALL ARE LOVED so so much. You have changed so many lives. Our God is Good. We may not understand why this has all happend. We may ask why he chose a Young Beautiful Mother, Wife, Daughter, Sister and Friend to take this Journey but we should know he had a plan. This Journey has brought so many together, united, praying. We must still pray for a miracle, it is Christmas time...The time of Miracles.

All my Love,

Nicole

Anonymous said...

Robynn....I don't know what to say besides thank you for being in my life.

When I first met you I was in awe of your beauty in and out. You are a down to earth gal that I love talking to. I wish we would have more time to sit and talk and go walking or running but I know God has a plan for you. I love you!

I want you to know I will be here for your family. I wish I had more words but I am numb just from reading this blog right now.

I just want you to know we love you and thank you for being YOU!!!

Love you, Amber

Anonymous said...

Praying for you all...especially Brady & Hailey. Thank God they have such a wonderful dad to shepherd them through this painful time. Wishing peace for Robynn and courage for Brian, and comfort for all of you....Katy Raytis

Anonymous said...

I am at a loss for words, just as many others are. I just want to say Robynn you have been one of my most precious friends and I am so thankful we met and you are a part of my life! I am thankful for all of the memories we share. This world is a better place with you here. I wish there was something I could do, all I can pray for is that you are comfortable. I love you and your wonderful family.

~ Wendi, Jeff, Sidney and A.J.

Anonymous said...

May calm fill your heart and may peace envelope your whole being.

Anonymous said...

Oh Robynn,
We pray for your miracle ... just not knowing exactly what miracle God has in store. But we make you this promise, we will all be here for Brian and Brady and Hailey. I see Spencer and Mason having a very special bond with your little angels. And they will be forever surrounded by so many who will love them and who will share so many stories with them. If you happen to win this race we are all to get to Heaven...some running, others jogging or walking...possibly backwards (always competative, right?) will you please give Kelly a hug for us...and have her give you one back....I just know she is watching over you right now...and if I get there first...well, I might drive our wonderful Lord crazy :) Sweet Robynn, just know how much you are loved by so...soooooo many. We will be here for you...and we will be here for your family if you need to go. You do what you need to do... True Love NEVER dies...You are TRULY LOVED!

Anonymous said...

To Shelly, Brian and the rest of the Goodell family. Thank you for your tireless efforts to keep us "The Extended Goodell Community" updated during these trying times. Lest we not forget the personal losses you have already endured during this difficult year. Our prayers and well wishes to you for including all of us in your family. May God bless and bring peace and comfort to you. The Mac Family.

Anonymous said...

Robynn,

I give thanks to God for your comfort and peace. May your home be surrounded by His mighty warrior angels and may your heart be light and uplifted. It is hard to surrender unconditionally to what path and plan God has laid out for us, but I know that when we do, we find peace...and peace is really the by product of grace...and grace is the ability to walk through our lives and situations with ease. Kid you have the almighty Grace of God walking with you. NOBODY IS TOUGHER THAN YOU! I continue to BOLDLY claim Psalms 77:14 over you.
"You are the God that performs miracles;you display your power among the peoples".

Brian, may the Lord blanket you with strength and comfort in the days to come. I pray that today finds you with love and joy and that your home is filled it in abundance.

Standing Strong Always,
Kellie Stroud :)

Anonymous said...

Robynn-
This has been so hard for me to believe. Actually - I didn't. I wanted to think that this was one of those set backs in life that YOU overcome and then talk about how you beat cancer for the rest of your life. You have heard and read a million "Robynn is so amazing" captions and it has all been so true. I admired you and looked up to you all through our high school days. I really wanted to be just like you. When I heard you had a beautiful productive family, I wasn't surprised in the least. You have given us all so much and while I am so sad for you and your family - I am so thankful to know you. You have given me and my daughters so much that I couldn't articulate properly, even if I tried. Last night my youngest daughter asked me if it was ok if she asked her teacher if her class could write you. She wanted me to show her teacher this blog and help her understand your struggles so that she could spread love and gratefulness and kindness among the children of her class. She has been so worried and sad for Haley and Brady because she couldn't imagine her life without her mommy. You have taught her so much. Maybe more than I could have. I can not formulate the words to express how I feel. I love you so much and know that is only a fraction of how much your family loves you. Thank you so much for what you did on this earth. Thank you for living such an amazing life...richer than many people whom live twice as long. You are an amazing person.
I love you!!!
~Bree-Ann

Bree-Ann Deemer said...

Robynn-
This has been so hard for me to believe. Actually - I didn't. I wanted to think that this was one of those set backs in life that YOU overcome and then talk about how you beat cancer for the rest of your life. You have heard and read a million "Robynn is so amazing" captions and it has all been so true. I admired you and looked up to you all through our high school days. I really wanted to be just like you. When I heard you had a beautiful productive family, I wasn't surprised in the least. You have given us all so much and while I am so sad for you and your family - I am so thankful to know you. You have given me and my daughters so much that I couldn't articulate properly, even if I tried. Last night my youngest daughter asked me if it was ok if she asked her teacher if her class could write you. She wanted me to show her teacher this blog and help her understand your struggles so that she could spread love and gratefulness and kindness among the children of her class. She has been so worried and sad for Haley and Brady because she couldn't imagine her life without her mommy. You have taught her so much. Maybe more than I could have. I can not formulate the words to express how I feel. I love you so much and know that is only a fraction of how much your family loves you. Thank you so much for what you did on this earth. Thank you for living such an amazing life...richer than many people whom live twice as long. You are an amazing person.
I love you!!!
~Bree

Anonymous said...

My dearest Roybean,
I never knew just how hard it would be to write this. I have tried and tried many times this week to say something to you, something to give you a smile through your pain, and I could never find something to smile about. That's true today, no matter the peace of the lords plan, it just feels unfair and wrong and horrible that we are all saying goodbye to you. Wonderful you. Thank you for being my friend. Thank you for memories of my childhood I have carried around inside my heart for many years and will forever treasure & cherish. Thank you for being someone I wanted to be like, and look up to. All the years we have not known one another mean nothing today. It is a lifetime I can reflect on and one I am proud to be a small part of in yours. Your wonderful family, may they find comfort in this cruel situation, knowing your grace, spirit and beauty touched so many in so many ways that can never be truly appreciated in words alone. A hug to you, a warm soft hug filled with love and respect for you Robynn and your kind family. You have shown me the kind of person we should all aspire to be, and not a day will pass that I won't rememeber how you have changed me forever. Please know my heart aches and cries silently and the tears that run down my face are for you darling Robynn. I won't be happy and find peace today. I'll ask god to forgive me though for being angry & bitter right now. We all beg for justice for you, and pray the lord to bring you comfort and know the unending love that surrounds you. Thank you Shelley for never letting us down, I'm sure there were days you didn't want to write, I know I can speak for all of us by saying you can never know the appreciation we feel for never leaving us in the dark longer than we could stand. Love to you all, and love to you sweetest Robynn, Brian, Hailey, Brady and all of Robynn's family. My family prays for you all today.

Much love, Stephanie McCall-Campos

Anonymous said...

Robynn-

I know that I will not have the opportunity to say goodbye in person. Though really it's never goodbye. I know that I will see your sweet face in Heaven when my time is here. I love you.

Until we meet again...

Vanessa Scroggins

Leslie said...

I cry tears of frustration and sadness that the treatment didn't work. I'm crying because Robynn, you get to home to be with your family. Brian, I'm sending you millions upon millions of bone-smushing hugs. And Shelley, as others have thanked you, I sincerely thank you for continuing to update all of us who feel so strongly about the Goodells and the battle you all have unfairly faced this year.

xo, leslie

Anonymous said...

Dearest Robynn, I haven't posted anything before, mostly for a lack of words. I have nothing but great admiration for you and the incredible strength you have shown. I am wishing for you comfort at home with your family. Know that you have inspired so many people to become better and more generous human beings. You are amazing.
Love, Barb (Weber)

Unknown said...

Robynn.

Sending Robynn love and light. Her bright spirit and energy has touched many lives. She was that bright even back in our High School days, a magnet of energy that you always wanted to be around.

Brian, Haily and Brady - I am sending you all love.

Robynn - may you find sweet peace and less pain.

Love,
Michelle Williams
Casa Class of '91

Anonymous said...

Words escape me right now. All I feel is sadness and the selfish feeling that why can't there be a different outcome.
Robynn- you are an amazing woman, mother, wife, and mostly an inspirational Christan. Thank you for bringing all of us closer to God during your struggle. I pray for Brian, your babies, Shelley, and your entire family. God must need you with him now!!!

Anonymous said...

Words escape me right now. All I feel is sadness and the selfish feeling that why can't there be a different outcome.
Robynn- you are an amazing woman, mother, wife, and mostly an inspirational Christan. Thank you for bringing all of us closer to God during your struggle. I pray for Brian, your babies, Shelley, and your entire family. God must need you with him now!!!

Anonymous said...

As I sit here reading the blog my heart is breaking. Robynn you have inspired me to be a better person. I pray for comfort for you. My love is with you. Brian and Shelley my heart goes out for you and Brady and Hailey. Please know that we will always be here for you. You will always be surrounded by love. To Robynn and Brian family you are now and forever in my prayers.

Dawn

Anonymous said...

Dear Robynn,
I am having a hard time knowing what to say at this moment. I have to be honest and say that i have been avoiding this blog for a long time. I guess because it shows the reality of what is going on and I have not wanted to come to grips with it. I just keep praying to the Lord to be with you and to take away your pain. I have faith but i keep wondering why and how this could happen to such a beautiful, caring, giving, spiritual, well almost perfect person. I remember in High School us becoming really good friends and how each day when i got to school you were pretty much the first person i would see. I would think ok what is Robynn going to be wearing today. Bree said it right when she said she wanted to be you. I think we all did in some way or another. Your hair was perfect every day darn it. I treasure every moment we shared. I will always rememeber you being the match maker for Matt and I. You were always thinking about others. I will never forget those times in my life with you. We shared alot of great times, I just wish we could have shared more. I remember how i would get jealous of anyone else being with you. I am so greatful for our friendship. I can not understand how difficult this must be for Brian. I have never seen a husband who loves his wife as much as he loves you. You are a lucky women to have that much love around you. You have been a fighter through this whole season in your life. Never giving up and always having the most amazing faith. There is nobody like you Robynn. I do know one day we will see eachother again and that day will be a glorious one. This is the one thing that is for sure. No more pain, just happiness. The song I can only imagine by Casting Crowns is such a beautiful song and always makes me take a deep breath because of what is yet to come. I will still be praying for you and your family and hope the Lord has one more trick left up his sleeve. I really don't know what else to say but I love you and I will see you soon.
Love always,
Kimmy June Rayburn (Pearson)

Anonymous said...

Brian, I will be praying for you and your children. You have been such an amazing husband and father. Robynn is a very lucky person to have you in her life. Your children are amazing and i will be praying for them to hopefully help them through this season in their lives.
Love,
Kimberly Pearson

MandyMarie12 said...

Beautiful Robynn,
These are the moments in life when your soul is so full that your mouth is subsequently empty. When someone changes another person’s life forever, the heart struggles to find the words to express it. When someone changes thousands upon thousands, well, they just don’t make those kinds of words. I suppose I could say you are a phenomenon, but that is too cold for the warmest lady I have ever met. An inspiration to us all? Definitely. I could spend my whole life trying to immolate the lifestyle that you lead and be grateful just to do so. But you have done more than inspire. You have given. To each and every person who has posted here, a gift you have bestowed. I read about all your stories, your kind words, your friendship…all of us trying to find words for that thing you just can’t explain.

Robynn, you told me once that in many ways cancer was the best thing that had ever happened to you. You said that it taught you to look at things differently, to appreciate more and to find gratitude in things sometimes overlooked. You said that it reminded you of how much you love, and how loved you are. You took that lesson, that gift, and you shared it with all of us while you fought off the downside, its teacher. You have reminded each one of us to hug longer, to love more, to yell less, to dismiss the petty …to dance when it is raining-- Robynn, you have reminded us all how to live. You have filled our cups, and now we runneth over. When you think about it, it is impossible for you to ever be gone. Each one of us, and there are too many to count, have a piece of you inside. A memory treasured, a lesson learned, a warmer heart. When we all come together, like we do here, you come alive. Your spirit is far too strong, far too bright and far too wide to ever be absent. You know what you are, Miss Robynn, you are the Miracle that we all pray for. I suppose they do make a word.

Thank You, Thank You, Thank You for the piece of you, which you shared with me, that has changed my life forever.

My love you.

Mandy

"What the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls a butterfly."
Richard Bach

Tonya Sandoval said...

Hey Girl,
Well I am so glad to hear about you breakin' out of that joint like you had been planning. I was equally glad that you got to have your diet vanilla coke after all. I hope you had one of your famous big giant beautiful smiles as you sipped it up. As for those Hospice nurses... You make sure they give you the good stuff. None of that generic stuff. Not for our girl. I love you so much and am sitting here with tears running down my cheeks. I wish I could give you a big tight hug right now. I am sure there is no shortage of love attention surrounding you right now. I am just selfish and would like a little for myself. We are all so lucky to know you. Thanks for your friendship!
Love,
Tonya Sandoval & Family

Anonymous said...

The only thing that comes to mind is the blessing I have heard a thousand times but it never has had as much relevance as it does now.

Numbers 6:24-25,
“May the Lord bless you and keep you. May the Lord make His face to shine upon you and be gracious to you. May the Lord lift up his countenance upon you and GIVE YOU PEACE.”

Anonymous said...

Dear Robynn,

I'm sad to hear that things have gone this way. I imagine that if I could control the flood of emotions long enough, maybe something meaningful to share or say would come to mind. Unfortunately I can't seem to do it, but I do want you to know that my heart goes out to you, your husband, and your children.

With love,

Robert