Robynn's questions everyday to Brady and Hailey

I challenge us all to follow in Robynn's footsteps.
Ask your own children the following and make sure you take action yourself!

1. What was the best part of your day today?
2. What did you do to make someones day better?

Those are your orders....

Pray On!
S

Thoughts on yesterday will come later;)
Have a safe and wonderful New Years Eve!

Memorial Service

OLG Church-911 Park- West Sacramento
Tuesday, December 30th 11am

Our Special Mass with Father Craig

Knowing how hard Christmas would be for our family and Kelly's, Father Craig made us an offer we could not refuse. A private mass at the Brown's home. We were so grateful that he would honor our families with such a spectacular gift. It was as perfect as it could be. Father Craig was all set up with Robynn's picture on one side of the altar and Kelly's on the other. the Brown's had cleared all the furniture out of their living room and replaced it with folding chairs from the church. Kelly's boys, Spencer and Mason gathered in another room with their cousins, practicing each of their very special parts and Brady and Hailey got ready to lead everyone in the 3 Christmas songs we'd sing with them. It was an indescribable experience to see these beautiful women's children touch our hearts so profoundly. Full of emotion and tears streaming down my face, I felt the pride that Heaven was filled with. I missed them beyond any expression, yet I felt them so near.
In Robynn and Kelly's honor and in honor of Our Saviors birth, we gathered in faith,prayer, song, sorrow and hope. A moment in my life that will impact me always.
Before I left, Kelly's parents and sister Brandy gave me"Pandora's box" charm bracelet with a single "K" charm. I had Father Craig bless it and yesterday I went and added 2 charms. One was a four leaf clover that represented Robynn(my Christmas ornament this year from her was a Christmas tree made out of four leaf clovers) and the second was a bible with a cross that dangled from it. Two women I love so deeply. I often wonder how I will survive without them. The bible sits between them as a reminder of how I must trust in the Lord and obey "His Will". Pray that we all may find a way to be comforted by His great love and promise of His kingdom where Robynn and Kelly await our arrival!

Pray On!
S

We Made it Through Our 1st Christmas Without Our Beloved Robynn...

Brian, Brady and Hailey made it safely back to West Sac. The kids and I will head there Monday morning for Tuesday's service. If you missed the Bakersfield obituary, it is in the Saramento Bee today and tomorrow.
The busyness of Christmas; preparing to feed 40 people and then clean up, helped take the edge off our tremendous sadness. Thank you so much for your continued prayers.

Be still, my soul: the Lord is on thy side;
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain;
Leave to thy God to order and provide;
In every change He faithful will remain. -von Schegel

Love and God bless
Pray On!
S

Celebrate Christmas!!!

Your orders still "Stand"!

Sending our very best "Robynn hugs" on this special day when Christ Our Savior was Born!

Merry Christmas "Army Goodell"!

Pray On!
S

John 3:16
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

Robynn's Service

I feel the need to bow to each and every one of you who came to honor "Our Girl" yesterday.
I am on my knees in unending gratitude. What a perfect representation of our most magnificent soldier, Robynn. Thank you for sharing in our sorrow, grief, joy and faith. We hope you will join us in following Father Craig's command..."Celebrate Christmas" and celebrate Robynn.
Those are your orders...CELEBRATE CHRISTMAS Army Goodell!

West Sac services will be at 11am Tuesday the 30th at Our Lady of Grace.

Pray ON!
S

Thank you to whomever left me the darling santa pants that held the most beautiful angel, dressed in black boots, a green and black taffeta dress and "bling" around her neck. She is precious and I will treasure her always!

Prayer Request for Sean Malone

Kerrie Malone's husband is in the hospital suffering head trauma and remains unconscious due to a car accident. He is in ICU and they had to drill into his skull to help relieve the pressure.
Kerrie is pregnant with their 3rd child and has been one of Robynn's best friends for years.
On our knees Army Goodell...on our knees!

Pray On!
S

Memorial up North

Tuesday December 30th at OLG is when Robynn's memorial will be. We will also be running her obit in the Sacramento Bee next weekend.

Psalm 29:11
The Lord gives his people strength.
The Lord blesses them with peace.

Stand Strong!
Pray On!
S

Robynn's Obituary

It can be found in Saturday & Sunday's paper at;
http://www.bakersfield.com/

I have had many requests via email and I think most of them can be accommodated when this is available to you tomorrow. If not...you know where to find me;)

Brain, Hailey, "Calkan" and I have made it back to Bakersfield safely and are waiting for
Mum-Mum, Papa, Brady and Tanner to get here.
Thank you for praying for safe travels!

XOXO!
Pray On!
S

Hold Tight West Sac!

We are working on a memorial service for Robynn in your town;)
Please be patient with us, as we have so much to do.

I thought you would take comfort in knowing Father Jos came by last night and anointed her and we gathered around her holding hands and prayed together. When Father finished, Robynn immediately spoke in her sweet but quiet voice making sure we all knew how much she loved us and how she was so grateful for taking such wonderful care of her and her family. It is mostly a blur, but her absolute grace and presence of spirit resonated as we knelt before her, totally "in Awe"once again. It takes my breath away as I type...

God Bless you ALL!
Pray On!

Standing Strong with Jesus

Army Goodell,

Our gracious Lord has commanded that Robynn come to Him.
Being the ever faithful servant...she obeyed.

That is all I have for now, I'm sorry.
Pray On!
S

Services will be 11am Tuesday December 23rd at St. Francis Church in Bakersfield.
Thank you Father Craig for accommodating us so quickly.

My Email

bdairygirl@gmail.com (kind of important, i guess;)
There are many of you that have asked "don't post this" and asked for a phone call.
Here is my email so that you can send your thoughts/request to me personally.
Please understand my priority is helping care for Robynn and I will get to you when I can.

Army Goodell ROCKS!!!!!!
Thank you dear soldiers...
Pray On!
S

A Little Wobbly...

...but we are still Standing Strong!

Thank you for holding us up!

All my love!
Pray On!


2 Corinthians 1:3
Praise God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! The Father is a merciful God, who always gives us comfort.

Another Rough Night

Restlessness has become our forefront enemy. She still battles nausea and vomiting, but not being able to find a way to get settled seems the most bothersome right now. She craves food and liquids even though she knows she can't keep them down. They increased her meds in hopes of getting her some mush needed rest. She did get a shower this morning and sat in her favorite chair while I did her make-up. Jamba juice was here when we finished and she was so excited. Didn't sit well, but we knew it wouldn't:(


Deuteronomy 7:9
Know therefore that the LORD your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commands.

Pray on!
S

She Did It!

As hard as it was, she made it out to the front room to view Brady and Haileys masterpiece tree. She had a couple sips of egg nog, apple juice slushie and hot tea while listening to Christmas carols. She is nodding off, but is not willing to go back to bed. A true soldier, that you want on your side for sure!

Sweet dreams faithful army!
Pray On!
S

Settling In

She made it home without incident. We were totally prepared for any and all hurdles we might have to hop over, but with God as our pilot,there were none.
Brian, the kids, Matt, Erin, my mom and dad went and picked out a Christmas tree. They strapped it to my parents car and brought it home. The house smells sooooooo yummy. It definitely brought some much needed Christmas spirit. We hope to get her out to her favorite chair, get the holiday tunes pumpin and decorate a way with her observing the chaos;)
She is still battling the "yuckies" on and off, but at this moment is a 2 thumbs up.

Stand Strong Army Goodell!
Pray On!
S

Breakin Free!

It's about that time! She is happy to be leaving soon even though she knows the outcome. She just said in a low voice, "so hospice is official...that's exciting", I replied with "yep, gettin my pom poms out" and she chuckled. Before that, Papa went to Sonic to get 4 slushies...strawberry, watermelon, lemon-lime and diet vanilla coke Hip Hip Hooray! They did not sit well in her tummy but she was determined to have some of each regardless. Just enjoying that simple pleasure was worth getting sick in between.
I had been telling Robynn about the mini Sound Of Music concert Hailey and I gave Brady last night and on her way to the potty she started singing Doe a deer, a female deer, ray a drop of golden sun........and Brian, myself and her mom all joined in.
She is ready to roll, more later!

Pray On!
S

A Regretful Post

My Dearest Faithful Army Goodell,

We have been unsuccessful at getting Robynn's body to respond. It is obvious the cancer is overtaking her at a rapid rate. They will be getting her ready to come back home. Hospice will be at the house tomorrow to give instruction on the best ways to keep her comfortable.
Please know we did everything in our power to provide comfort and to accomplish her ultimate goal of getting back home.
What I type will never convey our gratitude for the constant vigil you have kept with prayer and action in Robynn's name. She was "in Awe' of your response and knows her journey would have ended long ago if not for all of you. I am still praying for a miracle as I know that is her only hope. No Dr or medication is a match for what Our Father has planned.
I want you to take comfort in our Lords plan, but understand if you can't at this moment. I would be dishonest if I told you I felt comforted.

Please understand our immense need for privacy. I will keep you updated, but we ask for no visits or phone calls. Brady and Hailey have not been made aware of this development so we ask that it not be addressed with your children if they attend OLG. We want Brian to be able to sit down with them in person.

I can't say anymore right now, I'm sorry.

Pray On!
S

PS Callahan finished reading Twilight to her yesterday

Psalm 91:11 For he will command his angels concerning you

The above verse is on an angel ornament that my friend Raji sent to Robynn. It hangs on her IV pole keeping constant watch. The words are not written on the angel, just the verse. I am not the bible scholar you might think and I had been meaning to look it up for a couple days and never found the time. As I sat hear watching her sleep, I took it down and decided to "google" the specific verse. As I read the words on BibleGateway.com, I was overwhelmed with emotion. This was the very verse I had chosen to put in Kelly's program's (after I received it from Robynn's Aunt Augie) in an attempt to comfort all who miss her so desperately. What perfect words to keep vigil for Our sweet girl. Sorry, I just had to share, because this is so NOT an accident.
Right now we are waiting on 2 more units of blood. She had an extremely miserable night filled with the nastiest of "yuckies". She seems to have overcome that bout and is finally resting. She is not allowed to eat or drink anything and she is protesting this when she is awake. As soon as she saw me she asked if I would get her a diet vanilla coke and I was thrilled to have her ask for something. I was ready to run as fast as I could to find one(keep in mind, I don't run;) and Brian says she knows she can't have one, but is still trying to pull a fast one...can't blame a girl for tryin!!! It is still unclear what needs to happen before she can go home. Some moments, I'd like to unhook her from everything, throw her over my shoulder and bolt down the hall and drive away with her. Not rational, I know, I'm over it...for now.
Back to some fonder memories. Yesterday Aunt Robynn got a solo performance from Tanner. He has chorus for an elective and they had their fundraiser Saturday night. So, as soon as she was able to see him, he sang the songs from his program to her. No one was allowed in the room, it was a private performance for his Aunt Robynn. What an amazing gift to her and a wonderful memory for Tanner...his Aunt Robynn bursting with joy and pride.
A Life experience, truly at its best!!!

I have more stories but want to get this posted, as I know you are all anxious. Things are very difficult, but I will keep you updated best I can.

Love you all!
Stand Strong!
Pray On!
S

Until Tomorrow...

She was a little more lucid this evening. We even took a lap around her floor in hopes of "gettin this party started" with her bowels;) I am in West Sac taking care of the kids and will return to the hospital after I get them off to school. I don't have any more reports about her health tonight, but have more stories about her day for you tomorrow....

Good Night Dear Warriors!
Pray On!
s

Keep Inspiring Her!

She had an MRI of the brain this morning and is getting her port cleaned out so she can get hooked back up. She kind of drifts back & forth between sleep and interacting with those in the room. Her blood levels dropped again(8.7) and will probably require another transfusion. She is really pushing to get out of here and get back home. If she does go home, we will need Home Health care to come in and train Brian on aspects of her care that he can tend to.
"Calkan " has just been summoned to read "Twilight" and she is "On It"!!!
Your "commments" are almost more than we can get posted. She smiled so sweetly when we told her about her army taking charge...thank you.

XOXO
Pray On!

Results are in

The CT scan did not show a blockage in her intestines. Instead they believe her bowels had shut down because she has not been eating or drinking. To get them moving again they will start feeding her through her port with predigested nutrition. Her liver function is deteriorating and she does have fluid in her tummy and around her lungs. They are not going to drain anything until they know it is absolutely necessary. Keeping her comfortable and "poke free" is our goal. They will do blood draws every 8 hours instead of once a day. Our hope is that the nutrition and blood transfusion will give her a little pep;) 'Calkan's' goal is to see that Aunt Robynn finishes reading Twilight and if that means reading it to her, then so be it!

Brian wanted to make sure that I share something with all of you. Last night when they were on their way to the ER, Robynn was quite upset. She just wants to be home and was not taking another hospital visit very well. She even refused to hold Brian's hand because she partially blamed him for being the transporter (that just makes me giggle with delight that she still has that spark:) When they arrived her ONLY comfort came from You! Brian began to read your "comments" to her. She closed her eyes and became so comforted with every word. She smiled...nodded and when Brian stopped to take care of something she quipped, "don't stop" with her eyes fixed on him. Once again he started and she nestled in, eyes closed and smiling, completely content. What a glorious escape you all provided her...our warmest thank you.
Please keep your "comments" coming, as their benefits are limitless. You all have said she inspires you and in return you have returned the favor by inspiring her!

Pray on faithful soldiers!
S

North Bound

"Calkan" and I are heading up North. I apologize for the agony of not getting any info for a few hours. I will drive as fast as I can;))))

Love to all!
Pray on!
S

At Roseville Sutter

Her blood levels were low, so they gave her 2 units of blood. Waiting for results of CT scan and to talk with the Dr this am. Brian said she mostly just sleeps and is pretty out of it. Once the CT scan results are in we will know if other tests need to be done.
More information when I get it.

Pray On!
S

Headed Back to the ER

"Our Girl" is very sick. She cannot keep anything down and even the simple pleasure of trying to speak causes her to vomit. Having nothing in her tummy, makes it all the more painful and intolerable. This leads the Dr's to believe she has a blockage in her intestine or the cancer has spread to the brain. She is not in liver failure but her liver shows significant damage. Brian called the Dr's in charge of her clinical trial in Santa Monica and they said she must go to the ER and if certain tests were positive she would no longer qualify as a trial recipient.
I wish I could type something else, I begged the Lord to give me something else to type. For now, this what He is giving us. Stand Strong for Robynn and for our Savior who will not fail us.

The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid? Though an army encamp against me, my heart shall not fear; though war rise up against me, yet I will be confident. (Psalm 27: 1, 3)

Pray On!
S

Psalm 27:14

"Wait patiently for the LORD. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the LORD"

Things are not going well for our sweet girl. She cannot keep anything down, including liquids. Brian has moved her downstairs and packs pillows around her to help keep her more comfortable. Her tummy continues to grow causing her skin to stretch rapidly, both causing pain. Heavy doses of multiple meds knock her out for small periods. When I talked to him last, she was out of it and he was outside hanging Christmas lights.

Before I forget, I wanted to thank Robynn's Bunco group for making sure they came home to a super clean home and Myron for personally cleaning their carpets. Five minutes after arriving home, their next door neighbors showed up with enough food for an army, for days!
A big Yummy thank you;)

A SUPER DUPER thank you to Robynn's sister"Enni" for taking wonderful care of Robynn and Brian's most prized possessions...Brady and Hailey. This is no small task and is the most special of gifts.

There are many others who deserve personal thank you's... please forgive me for not mentioning each and every one of you.

Pray on!
S

Constant Prayer

"But now, Lord, what do I look for? My hope is in you."
Psalm 39:7

Dear Lord, please have mercy on Robynn and keep her surrounded in your care. Please replace her pain and suffering with comfort and peace.

Her tummy continues to increase in size and cause great discomfort. Her blood levels don't indicate that blood is draining into her tummy like before. Instead, it seems likely that the tumors are growing at a rapid rate.

Back down soldiers...
Pray On!
S

Home Sweet Home

Sorry for the delay, but I had no access to a computer til now.
After she got "unhooked" they administered a steroid called dexamethasone and then we jumped into separate cars to head home. Robynn and Brian were missing Brady and Hailey something fierce and getting back to them was #1 priority.
I will check in with them later, but for now I want them to enjoy just being home.

Pray On!
S

End Yondelis Round 1

Ok, here's what happened yesterday. It was Brain's goal from the beginning to get her to Rodeo drive and see all the gorgeous shop windows decorated for Christmas. When we realized how bad her health was, it just didn't seem obtainable and it kind of became a standard joke this trip. There she was laying in bed and she blurts out "let's go to Rodeo Dr.". Brian and I brush her off and joke back but have no intentions to take her anywhere at this point. She says it again while Brian is taking off to the drugstore and once again we joke back and he leaves. Upon his return she says, "lets go to Rodeo Drive"(mind you, it's now after 9pm) "you're serious"?I am, "yep, I've got cain fever and I know he(Brian) wants to go" I respond with "Brian can go;)" she starts sitting up and asking for her uggs and we were off, like a heard or turtles;)
We made it around Rodeo Dr and then decided we should visit Uncle Sonny at Cedars Sinai because he didn't sound good when Brian spoke to him over the phone. We arrived at the hospital about 10pm and gave our Uncle the most wonderful surprise...Robynn! He was ecstatic! He could not stop talking about what a wonderful gift this was and how she inspires him to beat his own cancer diagnosis. It was quite touching.
On the way home we had a little detour to South Central and got down with the Homies G'S. After "breakin it down" with them, we ended up stuck on the freeway in gridlock traffic.
Thank the Lord for small miracles...she was ok during it all. A little wobbly and sluggish, but the total warrior that we have witnessed many times.
This morning she is not faring as well, but we are gearing up for her 10 am appt. Sorry to cut this short, but I must get ready for today......

Pray On!
S

Rest Received!

What an AMAZING God we have! We asked and boy did he deliver! She slept from the time of my last post til about 6:30(5 hrs) Yippee! She is kind of groggy but doing ok. I snuck off to Whole Foods and got her some fresh strawberries,kiwi and raspberries to add to the mango, grapes and melon Brian had picked up last night. For some reason fresh fruit is the only thing that sounds good and sits well in her tummy.
The details of what happened next, will have to wait til tomorrow as it almost midnight and way past "lights out". Don't fret...it was all good!;)

Pray On!
S

Psalm 28:2

'Hear my cry for mercy as I call to you for help, as I lift up my hands toward your Most Holy Place'

We are back at the hotel after a frightful morning.
Let me start with saying the "comfy bed" did not do much for her. Her pain and comfort level could not be kept under control. When she arrived for her appt they did a blood draw and results showed her platelets were too low to start trial. They retested 3 times and then got a "read" that qualified(1st bullet dodged). Next up was her liver function level. She was a 2.3 and needed to be under 1.5. Once again, Brian hears that she does not qualify. With his heart in his throat, a nurse rechecks the prospectus for the trial and realizes that patients with liver cancer can have higher levels(up to 2.5). With the 2nd bullet dodged, they hook her all up and monitor her bodies reaction. After about 3 hours they give her the ok to leave.
She is now back in bed and on 2 different medications to help her rest and reach a decent comfort level. We will return tomorrow at 10am to discontinue the Yondelis.

The most difficult part is watching her suffer. No one should endure this...back on our knees soldiers...

Pray On!
S

I Leave You with This.....

Philippians 4:5-7

Let YOUR reasonableness become known to all men. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious over anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication along with thanksgiving let YOUR petitions be made known to God; and the peace of God that excels all thought will guard YOUR hearts and YOUR mental powers by means of Christ Jesus.

Pray On!
S

Gone Baby Gone!

We made our great escape to the hotel! It wasn't a perfect getaway, but she is officially in a "comfy bed". She is still fighting off the yuckies and hopes for a fabulous night sleep.
Brian is getting some prescriptions filled and when he returns, it's "lights out"!

Please continue with constant prayer as she still has a long haul.

Thank you again...
Pray On!
S

Waiting to Break Free....

She has had a few visitors today, but wasn't feeling very perky. She has gone from nauseated to loopy with the help of a drug called Ativan. My parents and the kids just left and now she is taking a little snooze.
We are now waiting for the Dr. to let her leave so she can rest in a much more comfy bed.
She is still on schedule for 9am tomorrow to start the Yondelis trial and that's our most important goal right now.

Pray on!
S

Yuckies are Back

She was so excited to keep down a bowl of cereal and then her pain meds got the best of her and made her nauseous. We really want to get her out of here, but are unsure what will happen.

Luke 1:28
The angel went to [Mary] and said,
"Greetings, you who are highly favored!
The Lord is with you."

Pray On!
S

Until tomorrow...

We made it to Diddy Riese ( ice cream sandwich capital;) Brian is on his 2nd sandwich(cinnamon sugar cookie with vanilla bean ice cream & choc chip cookie with espresso chip ice cream) and he will probably have Robynn's(double choc chip cookie w/ mint chip ice cream) leftovers.
Pray the "yuckies" stay far far far far away!!!!!!!!!!!

Good night soldiers!
Pray On!
S

Lazy Day

We have just been layin low, enjoying USC STOMPING UCLA! Fight On!
The kids and Mum-Mum are playing Farkle(dice game) Papa is dozing while watching the Oklahoma game and Brian has Robynn snuggled between his legs while she reads Twilight. She has been diligent in asking for her pain meds, but vitals and blood work look good.

XOXO
Pray On!
S

Psyche!!!

Sorry for the false alarm! They did another blood draw out of her vein(not her port) which is more accurate and her level had risen since yesterday, not dropped.
We are overjoyed!

Thank you for your constant prayers!
Pray On!
S

Thumbs Down on Blood Work:(

Her hemoglobin dropped 2 points and we are very disapponted. Waiting to talk to Dr about latest results...

Pray On!
S

Hello there!

Miss Robynn had a rough night, but you'd never know by looking at her this morning. Nausea and vomiting was back in full force, but is now under control. She has been experiencing a lot of pain in her liver and it shoots up across to her right shoulder. They did a blood draw this morning we and are waiting for results.
Robynn is enjoying being pampered by Cal who is sprucing up her finger and toe nails....I 'm hopin I'm next;)

Pray On!
S

Staying Put

They want to keep a very close eye on Robynn so there is no way she won't be ready for Monday. We aren't thrilled, but it is probably better to be safe than sorry.
My mom and dad just arrived and brought Cal and Tanner. Aunt Robynn was happy to see them and enjoyed a great visit with her cousin Korey and her Uncle Kenny is her newest visitor.

Pray On!
S

Uncle Sonny

I almost forgot to tell you that he is down the road at Cedars Sinai hospital finishing his stem cell transplant. We will go visit when Robynn is able.
Please send prayers his way.

Pray On!
S

Blood Work is Back

Her levels are all good...Hip Hp Hooray! Doc says he will release her to a regular room, but Robynn and Brian are determined to get out of the hospital all together. They are hoping that staying in the hotel across the street will convince them to give her the boot! She so wants to sleep in a real bed, sight see and enjoy the gorgeous weather.
She is on track to start the Yondelis trial Monday and in a perfect world go home Tuesday.

Psalm 103:2
Praise the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits.

Pray On!
S

A Little Break

Robynn is reading Twilight, a book Callahan got her hooked on and Brian is laying in bed with her taking a little snooze. We are hoping to get an "early check in" at the Best Western across the street so Brian can shower away his stinkiness;) PEEEEEE EEEEEWWWWW!!!
It would be a great relief to get to sleep in a real bed tonight as well. Before I got here, he slept on the window seat. Last night, I got the window seat and he got a chair...what a gentleman.
Once again, it's the waiting game....

Pray On!
S

Good Morning Soldiers

Robynn is up and getting beautified(takes little to NO effort;) She got a chest x-ray at about 6am. When she finishes up her plasma they will do a blood draw and see how she's progressing.
She did require pain meds when she woke up and is going to try and stay on top of that with regular doses.
Brian is off to get breakfast and caffeine.
We are hopeful that her tests will come back at levels that will allow her to leave today.

Keep the prayers flowing!

Love you all!
Pray On!
S

Back from CAT Scan

Good evening "Army Goodell"!
It's 7:30 and she just got back to her room. While we were waiting, Brian and I ran to a local Thai restaurant to get her some Pad Thai, fried tofu and won-ton soup(because my treats were not quite enough;) Boy does this family love to eat!!! For those of you worried about Brian...I arrived w/ a pastrami & cornbeef sandwhich for him and turkey for myself. We waited for over 3 hours and couldn't shove them in fast enough after Robynn was wheeled off to her scan, as eating in front of her is not an option when she can't partake.
She had her own little smorgasborg and Brian and I were sure to join in;) We are now getting ready to snuggle up for NBC Thursday night TV.
Her Dr just came in and said her scan was better than expected. The fluid in her belly was nothing compared to "Norm" (6 litres). There was probably only 1/2 a litre and in no way was that worth the pain of that big needle being stuck in her. Her lungs contain effusions in the lower lobes (pockets of fluid). Big deep breaths and coughing can usually pop these open and send them packin!!! Go Robynn Go! She will get 2 more units of blood tonight as well as some plasma.

I think I covered it all. Gotta watch the rest of Earl....

Pray On!
S

I Made It!

I arrived safely to find "Our girl" in good spirits and waiting to be picked up for a CAT scan. I immediately whipped out my stash of Smith's cookies, See's candie, fresh bagels and pretzels only to be told she couldn't eat anything...total buzz kill;( I have stowed them away so she may feast upon her return!
We did find out that her hemoglobin is 9.3 and needs to be higher. She will more than likely get another unit of blood tonight and possibly some platelets. We had a bout with the "yuckies" when she had to drink the contrast for the scan, but as usual she prevailed with flying colors.
She also received a vitamin K shot to help slow down the bleeding and is now getting some pain meds.
My arrival enabled Brian to get out of the room for a break and Roynn and I are enjoying watching Ellen.

More later!

Pray on!
S

Headed to Santa Monica

I am on my way to give my brother some much needed relief and hopefully able to get a couple chuckles out of Robynn with my fabulous sense of humor;) Come on "humor me".

Will get you updated when I get there!

PRAY ON!
S

ICU

She was moved to ICU last night and they will be keeping her there until they can figure out the cause of her fevers, why the blood loss and where the blood going.
She has one bag to go on her transfusion.
Brian said they are "just chillin in their luxury ICU suite"
Glad to hear they still have a sense of humor;)

Love to all!
Stand Strong in Prayer!
Pray On!
S

ER Bound

Robynn and Brian had gone back to their hotel to rest until it was time for her transfusion and ran across their next hurdle....a 103.4 fever.
Our guess is that she will get IV antibiotics and hopefully her 4 units of blood. All these elements must stabilize before she is eligible for treatment.
We have been on this roller coaster ride many times...buckle up...white knuckle up and hold!!!

Pray On!
S

Yondelis It is!

There was a piece of the puzzle that the Dr. didn't have that prevents her from qualifying for the trial we were most excited about:(
She will get 4 units of blood and wait to see what her results are on her liver enzymes, as they must be at a reasonable level to be eligible for the Yondelis trial.
Her belly is distended and reminiscent of "Norm and his evil twin Ned". Boy, how I'm reminded of how much upheaval they caused and how I dislike them!
Basically, we PRAY and we wait.............

Isaiah 33:2O
LORD, be gracious to us; we long for you.
Be our strength every morning, our salvation in time of distress.

Love you all!
Pray On!
S

Bad Blood Count

Her hemoglobin is a 6.6, so she requires a blood transfusion. She does not qualify for either trial until her count is elevated. She will get a transfusion today and hopefully start chemo tomorrow.
Please lift her in prayer as she needs immideate treatment.
This news is discouraging, but not hopeless...chin up!

2 Corinthians 12:9
But (God) said to me "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

Pray On!
S

Change of Plans

Robynn's sister Jenni will look after the kids in West Sac and I will be on "stand-by" to head to Santa Monica.
She was scheduled for her initial appt at 8:30 this morning, but is still waiting. We are really hopeful that the Dr. she will meet today will allow her into a different clinical trial that has no openings. This trial, from the information we have read seems better suited for Robynn. Both trials are not FDA approved, but have decent results in Europe, but the "closed" trial seems significantly more successful. I am hoping her cheery voice, beaming smile and contagious spirit will overtake this Dr. and compel him to let her join the currently "closed" trial.
When I get an update, I will pass it on faithful soldiers!

Psalm 27:1
The LORD is my light and my salvation -- whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life -- of whom shall I be afraid?

Pray On!
S

Yondelis Trial Starts Wednesday

Brian and Robynn will be headed to Santa Monica tomorrow, and I will be headed to West Sac to take care of Brady and Hailey. She will hopefully be done on Friday if all goes well.
Please continue to be vigilant in your prayers.

Psalm 16:1-2
Keep me safe, O God, for in you I take refuge. I said to the LORD,
"You are my Lord. Apart from you I have no good thing."

Pray On!
S

Home Safely

Robynn, Brian, Brady and Hailey are back in Sacramento.
Tomorrow they will solidify plans with a branch of MD Andersen in Santa Monica to find out more information on another form of treatment. The success rate is very low, but we are keeping ALL our options open.
Their trip to Bakersfield was filled with love, friends and family as well as extreme discomfort. Some plans with friends that had been made, had to be cancelled, but she rallied through like the incredible warrior she is. Her most severe struggle came on Thanksgiving night and continued through Friday. Saturday was a much better day and we were so happy to see her HUGE smile return.
I will get you the details as soon as I get them.

Psalm 27:14
Wait patiently for the LORD. Be brave and courageous.
Yes, wait patiently for the LORD.

Love you all!
Pray On!
S

Avastin Clinical Trial

She does not qualify...

Love you all,
Pray On!
S

Back On Our Knees...

Isaiah 33:2
O LORD, be gracious to us; we long for you. Be our strength every morning, our salvation in time of distress.

I wish I writing you today with good news about "Our Girl", but I'm not. The tumors in her liver have tripled in size and there are few options. Right now the only thing that has been offered up is a possible clinical trial with a drug called Avastin . Brian and Robynn are anxiously awaiting an appointment to meet with the head nurse for this trial to see if Robynn qualifies. If they can't meet with someone today or tomorrow, they will come home and return to Texas on Monday. If she is accepted she will have to travel to Texas every 3 weeks for treatment.
Needless to say, this is NOT the news we have prayed for. On the other hand, Robynn is a fighter and she will not succumb to hopelessness or despair.
If she can choose this direction, we must follow!!!
Those are your new "orders"! Chin up soldiers!

Pray On!
S

Justice for Aunt Dorothy & Uncle Joe

We received notice today that they have a 16 & 17 year old in custody that have admitted to murdering and robbing our Aunt and Uncle. We have prayed for this day and don't know that we realized its impact. Tanner asked me, "do you think they should get the death penalty mom"? I told him I just wasn't convicted about what should happen to them. I believe I have to give it up to the Lord and let His will be done.
Thanks you for your support and prayers, please keep them coming!

Robynn's tests are done, so now we wait.....

Pray On!
S

I'm a loser

Hi guys!

Brian and I went to the arcade today in Houston and played air hockey. We made a bet that the loser would have to post on the blog that they are a loser. We are very competitive and both cannot stand to lose at anything. It is with great difficulty that I have to admit that I not only lost, but got my booty kicked worse than ever. I can only attribute this to my big excuse that "I have cancer." Brian said that doesn't fly with him! =) Oh well, worth a try.

We are enjoying our time here. Since we are here without children, we like to think of it as a romantic vacation. Tomorrow will not be so romantic with all of my fun scans and tests, but today was great. Thanks for all of the positive thoughts and prayers. I will let you know on Tuesday what the doctor says!

love you,
Robynn

Prayer Request for Blake

I received this today. Emma was a HUGE part of Robynn's Blood Drive/Silent Auction and her baby Blake is in need of our help. Here is what she wrote;

I am sorry to have to ask this at this time, but we are in need of prayer ourselves. We were at my daughters soccer party last night, when my 1 year old baby boy touched the glass which was covering the lit fire place. We rushed him to the emergency room in Davis, which was the longest most painful ride of our lives. They took us in immediately and started helping him with morphine and numbing cream for his hands. They cleaned and removed all the skin that was hanging and bandaged him up. We went back to his doctors office today, where they cleaned and re-dressed it. We will be going back again on Monday at which time we will see his doctor. She will decide if he needs to be seen at the burn unit at Shriners. They are worried about infection and him loosing any mobility in his hands.So I ask that you please pray for my little man that he makes a full recovery and that we can keep his pain under control.
Thank you Blakes mommy, Emma

Pray On Faithful Soldiers!
S

Texas Bound

Brian and Robynn are boarding a plane as I write this. Testing will start Monday and they will fly into Bakersfield on Wednesday and spend Thanksgiving with us.
Robynn was quite the celebrity at Kelly's service. Everyone was so happy to get a chance to talk with her, hug her and for some, meet her for the 1st time. Mr. Brown(Kelly's dad) reads Robynn's blog, but until then had never met Robynn. He was in AWE of her spirit and joyful being. I know it was a sweet reminder of his daughter. I have always thought Kelly and Robynn were kindered spirits and took great delight whenever in their presence.
A couple days after Kelly passed, I fell hard and deep into the pit I've described before. I called Robynn in a panic and unable to stop sobbing. I told her my bracelet had broke that she made me for my birthday that read "sister" and "strength" and that I felt I had no strength and I needed her to bring whatever equipment was necessary to fix it. I also told her I needed something that represented Kelly. Little did I know and in total Robynn fashion...she had already made me a charm with "Kelly" on it with a cross that laid next to it.(Brandy, Mrs. Brown and Raji got one too) She, like Kelly, knew my need before I ever had to ask. I once again, am in AWE and I am so blessed.
Thank you my Sweet Robynn! I love you!

Isaiah 43:2
[God says,] "When you go through deep waters and great trouble, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown! When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you."

Pray On!
S

Hi everybody

Hi Guys!

I haven't posted in awhile. This past week has been an emotional roller coaster for me. Last weekend we went to Bakersfield before the USC game and I was lucky enough to spend a little time with some good friends. We had an amazing time at the USC game and were fortunate enough to get a behind the scenes tour from one of the players. Thank you Quin and Matt! You guys rock! To cap off an incredible day the Trojans beat the Bears 17-3. Then on Monday, we found out that Kelly was admitted to the hospital. Tuesday morning at 6:00am we received the devastating phone call that she had passed. Although I know that I should be happy for her that she is with God (as my daughter Hailey told me), I just cannot find anything in my heart but sorrow at this point.

Then the roller coaster ride rises up again as I watch my daughter play her final two soccer games this weekend and win both. Her team finished the season as undefeated. I believe this is due to the superior coaching of my husband. He does an amazing job of teaching and motivating those girls.

We will be driving back down to Bakersfield tomorrow, so that we can attend Kelly's funeral on Tuesday. I am glad that we can give Shelley and Brandy big hugs in person. I know they need them. Thank you for all of your prayers for myself, my family, and my friend.

I am officially on a break from chemo right now and I cannot remember what it feels like to be off chemo, so I look forward to this break. I am also very nervous about how the tumors will respond to this break. I ask for more prayers that the tumors will not grow too much during this time. Thank you! I love and appreciate you all so very much. I know that I am a blessed individual to have so many people pray and care for me. You cannot know how much it means to me!

love,
Robynn

A Miracle in my Life

Jeremiah 20:18
"Why was I ever born? My entire life has been filled with trouble, sorrow, and shame."

This is where I am right now.
I am filled sadness, disbelief, uncertainty and aloneness.
My life has been filled with Kelly and all of her fabulous wonders for over 25 years.
She was my "Norma"(aka Rock). She was the one, that no matter how bad it got, no matter how deep the pit was you had fallen into, she made that pit not so bad. She didn't stand at the top of the pit and yell down encouragement to you, she jumped down into the pit with you and said, "how do we get out of this together".
I'm sure you all remember the post way, way back (Friday May, 9th) about me being "kidnapped". That was Kelly coming to another "pit rescue".
She came to Robynn's rescue with the idea and implementation of her Prayer Quilt. She worked so hard sewing each square ever so lovingly and requiring that it be "just perfect" for Robynn.
When their mom fought Ovarian and then breast cancer, Kelly and Brandy were there on the "front lines" praying, supporting and researching any and all options. Simply, that's just who Kelly was!

The helplessness I felt as we sat at the hospital Monday and Tuesday is excruciating. I wanted to jump in the pit to rescue her and I couldn't. Instead, I dropped to my knees in prayer and stared through the glass and watched in disbelief as my dear sweet friend left us.
I was there, I witnessed it and it is not real. "It is not happening, It has not happened, please give her back to me, we have a lunch/shopping date this Friday and I want her there, I've already got her Christmas gift wrapped, we were going on a cruise..." It makes it so hard to breathe. Devastation surrounds me. Dear Lord have Mercy on me!
More importantly, have mercy on her children Spencer(9) and Mason(6) (through them came her biggest sense of pride and accomplishment), her husband Bill, her parents Jim and Jeannie Brown, her siblings Brandy(Marty) and Matt, niece Ryan and nephews Joe and Johnny, her "Amma" and her dear friends Raji and Shannon. Have mercy on all who loved her and the lives that will never be the same because of her.

She was a miracle in my life and I believe she is God's "right hand woman". I know she will continue to watch over us and give us strength as we climb out of the deepest and darkest pit of our lives. Thank you my Dear, Sweet Girl!

Ephesians 2:8-9
For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith -- and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God -- not by works, so that no one can boast.

In total despair, I beg you to "Pray On"
S

Colossians 3:23-24
Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.

New Angel

It is with a heavy and sad heart that I inform you of Kelly Haines leaving our world to be with our Lord. The Lord called her home to His Kingdom in the early hours of November 11th.
Please pray for the comfort of her husband Bill, her boys Mason and Spencer, her sister Brandy, her brother Matt and her mom and dad. May the Lord bless them all and show them that Kelly may be absent from this earth but will always be present their hearts.

We Love You Kelly and Will Miss You Greatly Until We See You Again In Our Lord's Kingdom!

Prayer Requests

Please place Kelly Haines in your prayers. She is in need of the Lords grace and comfort as she struggles with an unknown illness that has lead her to the ICU. Kelly was taken from her doctors office to the ER because her blood pressure had dropped dangerously low. While she was in the ER she struggled to breathe and as a result had to be placed on a ventilator. She has been in the hospital since around noon and doctors have not been able to figure out what is causing her issues. She will remain in the ICU and tests will continue to be performed to identify her ailment.

Also please keep Debbie Jett in your prayers, she has colon cancer, stage 3. She just had surgery on Mon. 11-3 to remove the large mass obstructing her colon and will begin aggressive chemo in a week. The cancer has spread to her lymph nodes, which they have removed, and now waiting for pathology reports to make sure that they got all her cancer. No cancer present in any major organs-thank God for that.

Please do as you have for Robynn and so many others in joining me in lifting Kelley and Debbie up to the Lord for it is only His wisdom, grace, and comfort that will see them through this trying time.

God Bless America!

I hope you all made it to the polls yesterday and that you would continually ask the Lord to guide our new administration and keep Our Country safe and heading in a direction that is pleasing to Him!

Robynn is getting some of her abundant energy back. She worked in the classroom yesterday and was headed to some "girl fun" later in the afternoon. Her nausea and pain have been pretty good, so she was a bit disappointed when she had to take a dose of anti-nausea meds. Just a minor set-back that she will leap right over!!!
This weekend they head down south to see the USC Trojans take on Cal...FIGHT ON!
Please pray for continued comfort for Robynn as this trip is extremely important to their family.

Philemon 1:6
I pray that you may be active in sharing your faith, so that you will have a full understanding of every good thing we have in Christ.

Pray On!
S

A Quick Prayer for Uncle Sonny

He just began his Megadaose of cytoxin(heavy duty chemo) and we would like the side effects to be minimal. He is gearing up for his bone marrow transplant during Thanksgiving.
Please give a "shout out" to Our Dear Lord on our Uncle's behalf.

PS Margarita's, wine, martini, Odoul's or a fancy glass with H2O to Robynn;))))) CHEERS!

Pray On!
S

Pop Open the Champagne!!!

Robynn is undergoing her last chemo before she starts her much needed "break".
Cartwheels and back flips are in order!!!!

Psalm 16:1-2
Keep me safe, O God, for in you I take refuge. I said to the LORD, "You are my Lord. Apart from you I have no good thing."

Pray On!
S

Good news...NO PAIN!

Bad news...she is EXHAUSTED!!! Robynn is having a rough time kicking "nap time;) Her only outing Sunday was church and then it was back to bed for a few hours. She managed a short picnic with Hailey and then back down she went. Her lack of energy make the smallest of things, like climbing the stairs a main event. Brian said they are relieved that this is their hurdle right now and they are not competing with pain. So, it seems to be a blessing. Thank you Jesus!
Texas is just around the corner and so is a break from this wicked stuff...Hooray!

2 Corinthians 12:9
But [God] said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

Love you all!
Pray On!
S

PS. Cal is doing great and Tanner goes to the Orthopedist to repeat the same routine as last appt! What color cast will he come home with??????;)

Jonah is with the Lord

This came from Jonah's family....

Dear loved ones,

As difficult as it is to write this morning, I know you all need to know what has taken place. Scott and Amy knew it was time to let Jonah go peacefully to his heavenly Father. We all know he has been in the arms of Jesus all this time. They were able to spend sweet moments with him and hold him close before they said good-bye. Jonah's grandparents and aunts and uncles were also able to see him and all spend time in his room where he and his parents have been for months. We appreciate, once again, all your prayers for Jonah's family during this difficult time. Thank you and God Bless you all for loving and caring

Chemo for Thursday is a GO!

Miss Robynn has had an annoying little cough that gets especially bad when she lies down and does not promote sleep. There was concern about her lungs and her Dr. wanted to get a
chest x-ray Monday. If the x-ray did not come back "clear", they would cancel chemo.
Good news soldiers, IT'S CLEAR!!!!!!! Hooray!
Who ever thought we'd be cheering for chemo???.....

Our weekend as Jet fans was a bit disappointing, as they lost in overtime:( but it was a super exciting game to be at.
The day before, in Modesto, the girls went shopping and the guys went golfing. After we all hooked back up, Erin and Matt treated us to homemade carnitas with ALL the trimmings that were out of this world! Stuffed out of our minds with all that yumminess we then flopped down to the couches, snuggled up and watched Baby Momma. Talk about funny! Boy did we laugh!
Before leaving for Oakland we attempted a family picture. Notice I used the word "attempted"? You can figure it out;)
That was pretty much it, just some good ol, FFF!(Forced Family Fun)

Now, we are all back to our respective cities with more wonderful memories to cherish!
Please keep Cal in you prayers. Nothing serious at all, just that she gets her wisdom teeth pulled tomorrow and she is being put under anesthesia which is always a little scary.

Philippians 4:9
Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me -- put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

Peace be with all of you!
Pray On!
S

We are Heading Your Way Brett!!!;)

Watch out Oakland, "Army Goodell" will be in full force as we cheer on Robynn's favorite football team and Tanners football hero Brett Favre.
GO JETS!
Robynn, Brian and kids are set to meet us in Modesto, spend some time with Matt, Erin and Maddie and then head up for Sundays game. We have been sooooooo looking forward to this and praying Robynn would feel well enough to go, and our prayers have been answered.....Thank You Jesus!

I ask for your continued prayers so that Robynn can enjoy this trip without discomfort,tiredness or pain and with a full appetite!

Pray On!
xoxo
S

Holdin Strong!

Still tired!
Still "Standing"!
Still Faithful!
Still...what we expect from Miss Robynn!!!:)

Your prayers help IMMENSELY!(sp;)

Psalm 8:3-4 When I look at the night sky and see the work of your fingers -- the moon and the stars you have set in place -- what are mortals that you should think of us, mere humans that you should care for us?

I love you all!
Pray On!

Amy Vallejo

"Army Goodell", I am once again enlisting your Incredible prayer power for our friend, Amy. She suffered a stroke today and as a result, broke her ankle and is paralyzed on her right side. She is in the Stroke Unit at a local hospital. She has 5 children and too many grandchildren to count and will require a tremendous amount of prayer support now and through in her recovery.

Thank you again for widening our "circle of prayer", fueled with faith, compassion and love!

Pray On you Mighty Warriors!!!
XOXO,
S

Leroy Sacchini AKA:Nono

My parents dearest and oldest friend has just been diagnosed with Prostate cancer. They seem to have caught it early and we are so thankful, Praise God! His wife Norma(Noni) and family are now researching many centers for the best treatment.
Please keep him lifted in prayer as well all all of "Army Goodell's" faithful warriors.

Pray On!
S

Mark Your Calendars Sacramento Guys & Gals:

Dave's Pumpkin Patch (http://www.davespumpkinpatch.com/) along with 105.1 KNCI will be hosting a fundraiser on October 14, 2008, for Robynn Goodell and her courageous fight against cancer. Dave's Pumpkin Patch will donate 10% of all gross purchases at the pumpkin patch (excluding food) to Robynn and her family.
We hope you can come be a part of this special day for Robynn.

Details below:
When: Tuesday, October 14th**
Pat and Tom from 105.1 KNCI's morning show will be broadcasting live from the patch from 5 am- 10am so be sure to listen or come by!
Time: 5 am until CLOSING at 7pm
How you can help: Come by the pumpkin patch @
3010 Burrows Ave, West Sacramento and either purchase something from the patch or just donate to the "Jar of Strength" for Robynn; encourage businesses, family or friends to donate or come to the patch that day and lastly, make sure to listen to our favorite radio station, 105.1 KNCI!

Inspiring words...

Happy moment, praise God
Difficult moments, seek God
Quiet moments, worship God
Painful moments, trust God
Every moment, thank God

Thank you Aunt Augie for sharing.

Pray On!
S

Tanner Update

Well, it went down just like they told us it would.
Cut cast off
X-ray
Recast(in neon hot pink;)
The x-ray showed that the healing is a slow process and there would be many more weeks in a cast. We will repeat today's appt in 3 weeks...repeat again and again til it is healed.
Tanner was a hit with the staff and patients with his hair spray painted neon green, with matching shirt and long socks to show his school spirit for SHS's Homecoming week(today's theme...Neon).
Tomorrow is the "50's" and he's debating on wearing a poodle skirt. I told him he could totally pull it of...we'll see???
Just like his Aunt Robynn, his spirit is unshakable and his outlook is ultra-positive.

Thank you for all your prayers.
Love you all!
Pray On!
S

Gettin Some ZZZ's

Miss Robynn seems to feel ok, just a bit on the tired side, pretty much all the time. I'll take it!
Pray for SWEET DREAMS and continued comfort.

Pray On!
S

Receive Brad With Open arms Dear Lord...He Awaits

I am sorry about not getting the previous post to you earlier and I emailed our dear friend Kim to tell her it what not intentional. The following is from Kim;

Shelley,
Thank you so much. I would NEVER think that – I promise!!! We lost Brad… well he is on life support for organ donation, but basically he is gone. It is beyond heartbreaking and I so hoped that prayer was work, but his injuries were just too big. Thank you for your note. We appreciate it as it will be a very tough week.

Much love,
kim

"BACK ON OUR KNEES" for his family...
I do not have a bible verse at the moment, just tears.
http://cbs5.com/local/richmond.police.crash.2.832722.html

Pray On!
S

BRAD MOODY

I don't have many details, but add his name to your prayers.

Pray On!
S

We are here Kim!

PURPOSE

Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

I can't explain or comprehend the "Purpose" of this journey, but I will "Stand" by Robynn and with you in Faith.

Pray On!
S

PS Miss Denise....update on Tanner Tuesday after his appt.
I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!

2 More Rounds, It Is!

Dear Family and Friends,

I just got off the phone with Robynn and her results are complicated, but here's my best translation;

Pretty much all the tumors in her abdomen have shrunk. She has multiple tumors in her liver, some have shrunk, some have increased in size. We did not talk about the other various locations where she has tumors, as these 2 area are the greatest concern. With that information, they are pushing "Our Girl" to go 2 more rounds with chemo. She will resume chemo this Thursday and be done with both rounds just before Thanksgiving(Hip Hip, Hooray!). Most patients are "begging" to have a break after what Robynn has endured, so we expect these next 2 rounds to continue to brutalize poor Robynn.
So I repeat;
Romans 5:4
And endurance develops strength of character in us, and character strengthens our confident expectation of salvation.

Please do not forget to Thank God for what He has given us thus far, and what He will continue to do...
Isaiah 49:13
Sing for joy, O heavens! Rejoice, O earth! Burst into song, O mountains! For the LORD has comforted his people and will have compassion on them in their sorrow.

Pray On!
S

The Waiting Game......

Romans 5:4
And endurance develops strength of character in us, and character strengthens our confident expectation of salvation.

As we know Robynn's "endurance" has been off the charts. Let hopes it pays off, with wonderful results from her day of testing yesterday.
"Army Goodell", prayers up to the Heavens!!! That's an order;)!

Pray On!
S

Off To Texas

They are headed back to see how well the chemo is working and whether Robynn's body can withstand another cycle or not. Just a reminder, that Robynn has been undergoing chemo "full throttle" since February. More than likely, her poor little body needs a break. Kind of a double edged sword....yes, we want her to have the comfort of a break from chemo, but...we fear of what will go on with the tumors if left alone. That is our dilemma soldiers.
So your orders are this;
Pray that the healing and comfort continues with or without chemo and at the hand of Our Gracious God! We have watched Him at work and know He is with us.

Love you all!
Pray On!
S

Robynn & Uncle Sonny

Robynn's comfort has been short lived since she has returned home. Please pray He puts His hands upon her and gives her some relief. They plan to leave for MD Anderson for her 6 week check up this weekend, so we need her well enough to get on a plane. Pray! Pray! Pray!
Mom/Mum-Mum will be in West Sac to take care of the kids while Brian and Robynn are away...thank you Mum-Mum!!!

Our Uncle Sonny (Julian) had some kind of seizure when he was at CBCC getting his chemo yesterday. His Dr ordered an MRI that we will get the results on today.
He's as feisty as ever, so that's a good sign;)

Philippians 4:8
And now, dear brothers and sisters, let me say one more thing as I close this letter. Fix your thoughts on what is true and honorable and right. Think about things that are pure and lovely and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. (NLT)

May Robynn and Uncle Sonny Praise Him as they fix their thoughts on comfort, healing and His love!

Pray On!
S

Praise the Lord!

They pumped Robynn full of IV antibiotics last night and today and sent her home with 7 days of oral antibiotics...YIPPEE!!!!! She was "Woo Hooing" in the background when I was talking to Brian. How that did my heart good!;)

Thank you again for going beyond the call of duty "Army Goodell".
You do me proud, every time!!!!

Pray On!
S

Back Down Army Goodell

Loyal Soldiers,

Robynnn has been admitted to the hospital to get a handle on the infection that seems to be causing her latest symptoms.
Please keep her surrounded in constant prayer and I will let you know how things are going tomorrow.

May Rest and Healing be yours, sweet girl!!!!! Feel our prayers!!!!!

Pray On!
S

Stand Strong! Stand Together! Stand with HIM!

Timothy 6:12
Fight the good fight of the faith. (NIV)
I have to remind myself when I am saddened and frustrated over Robynn struggling, that we can do ANYTHING through Our Gracious Lord. Please pray for Robynn, please pray for the soldiers that pray beside you as they might struggle with private issues.
Recently she struggles with a fever and lack of energy. She has been a tired little girl and I hope this rest is just what she needs to bounce back.

Please keep our friend Barbara in your prayers as she prepares for "Battle"! It was confirmed that her cancer was not isolated to her pancreas...it has also spread to her liver.

Love you all!
Pray On!
S

Baby Jonah

Please hold Baby Jonah up extra high as he will undergo a tracheotomy on Friday. This procedure will allow him to be taken off the ventilator and get him a step closer to winning his fight!
God Bless You All!

Robynn's Thank you!!

Hi Guys!

I was sitting here tonight reading all of the sweet postings on my blog and thinking how lucky I am to have so many people that are so caring in my life. I have been experiencing a lot of stomach pain lately and then suddenly it all just disappeared. Hmmm, I wonder why? =) Obviously, our Lord heard all of the prayers that you sent up to Him and He decided to cut me a little slack this week. I had a wonderful week of cleaning, cooking, making jewelry, soccer practice, walks around the neighborhood, and best of all working in my children's classroom. I owe it all to the Lord and my "army." I just wanted to take the time to thank you from the bottom of my heart for all of the love and prayers you have completely showered me with. Tomorrow I have my long and more difficult chemo and I will be greedy and ask for more prayers. I have bunco tomorrow night with a group of beautiful women and I would love to feel good for it. Thank you, thank you, and thank you again for everything. I know that my words do not do justice to the gratitude in my heart, but I hope that you at least get a glimpse of it. My cup truly runneth over. I love you.

Barbara Haller- Boylan-Schager

"Army Goodell",

Your commitment to Robynn has been tremendous and I ask once again, we widen our circle for Barb.
Please visit the following link, http://www.supportcircle.com/dbmodel_php/supportpage.php?rcp_ID=10873087&password= for my tears have gotten in the way of my words. I'm sorry.

Here was what I sent on our behalf;

Barb and family,
Your posts shook me to my soul as it is all too familiar. Please know I am enlisting all of "Army Goodell" to assist you, as it will be the "fight of your life"! This roller coaster ride has many ups and downs, but remember to give thanks and praise for each curve, bump, straight away and freefall. Miracles are possible and very real! I have been witness!

I love you, will pray for you and ask others to do the same. GAME ON Team Haller!!!{feel free to rename yourselves...you will always be Haller's to me)

Pray ON!
Shelley

Pray On!
S

Life Is Good!!!

Deuteronomy 31:8
"The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."

Thank you again Lord for bringing relief these past 2 days to Robynn. It is with your grace and mercy that rest and comfort has befallen her. Thank you for supplying courage, when discouragement is all consuming and providing security and friendship when we are afraid.

I am thrilled to report that Robynn worked in the kids classrooms, got a couple haircuts ( her wigs needed some shaping;) and was on the prowl for some new do's. You go girl!
I'm sure you can appreciate the joy it brings me to imagine Robynn blissful and pain free while she accomplishes the above. Nothing extraordinary, just "life"being played out and a brighter hope of tomorrow on the horizon...THANK YOU JESUS!

I love you all and thank you for your unending love, faith and prayers.
Pray On!
S

LORD HEAR OUR PRAYERS...

Dear Army Goodell,

You are called to duty and asked to find more recruits for prayer. "Our Girl" is REALLY having a rough time:( It seems her body has almost reached its limit with chemotherapy. I spoke with her today and could hear in her voice the toll it is taking. She still laughed, she still joked and she was still ALL concerned about Tanner, but I could just tell. I got off the phone and cried.
I just don't understand why she has to endure this kind of misery. Please ask Our Dear Lord to have mercy on her and give her peace, comfort and contentment.

"Rejoicing in hope;
patient in tribulation;
continuing instant in prayer"
(Romans 12:12)

Pray On!
S

You Guys Surpass Any Expectation, Everytime!

As far as Tannner goes, he broke his Ulna and his Radius and was surgery bound, until you guys stepped in! Your prayers changed everything! When we visited the Orthopedist Friday afternoon, he told us the Dr's in the Trauma Center set his arm perfect, laterally and missed just a bit on the other, but said it was close enough to his "growth plate", and should heal very nicely without surgery. He goes back this Friday for more xrays to make sure this temporary cast is keeping his bones in place. If so, then they will leave him in it for 2 weeks as swelling is better tolerated in it and then put a hard cast possibly right over this one. He is still pretty drugged up, but is thankful and gracious whenever he requires someones help.
While it is disappointing that his hard work and total dedication will go without reward, we are grateful that it was this and not something more serious.
A little insight into Tanner's "spirit"...when his coach came over and told Tanner his wrist was obviously broken, Tanner replied, "but Coach, I'm starting today". Gotta love that!
SHS beat EHS 34-0....go Mustangs!;)

Romans 8:26
The Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.

Pray On!
xoxo,
S

PS I will get back to you with an update on Robynn when I talk to my brother.

Tanner & Robynn

Robynn and I would ask you all to pray for our nephew Tanner (the Blog Dancer). As he was preparing to be the starting right tackle in his first High School football game, he broke his wrist and had to be taken via ambulance to the hospital. My understanding is the swelling is too bad to perform surgery tonite, they hope to set it tonite and perform surgery within the next few days once the swelling has decreased. Please pray that he is granted comfort from the pain he is experiencing and that the surgery is able to be performed quickly so the healing process can begin!

I would also like to ask everyone to say and extra prayer or two for Robynn. Typically the pain and discomfort she experiences comes within days (usually days 1-4) after chemo. Unfortuantely, throughout last night (the night before chemo) Robynn was experiencing such a significant amount of pain, multiple pain meds had to be used to gain her some comfort and help her sleep (knock her out) at 5am. With chemo completed today we are preparing for more days and nights like this, she is already experiencing discomfort this evening that has required her to take meds in hopes of keeping a handle on things. My hope is that the extra prayers lifted to our Lord will ease some of the burden Robynn is sure to endure in the upcoming days and nights.

Thank you so much for all of your support and prayers!

Robynns Adoring Husband!

BIG Shout Out of Prayer....

Chemo again today! Wrap her up in love and prayers!!!!!

Psalm 27:13-14
I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD. (NIV)

Pray On!
S

Grateful Goodell Family!

As Robynn and I were Celebrating our 11th Anniversary Saturday, we were sitting on a balcony overlooking the Napa Valley when we looked at each and said we didn’t think we would see this day. We then went on to reflect on the many wonderful things we have been able to do, so many thing we never thought possible:

we celebrated our Godsons Baptism on Robynn’s Birthday/Easter
we celebrated our most meaningful Mothers Day ever
we were there when Hailey Graduated from Kindergarten,
we were at nearly all of the kids Baseball games
we’ve had family vacations to Halfmoon Bay, Houston Tx, and Punta de Mita Mexico
we Celebrated Brady’s 9th Birthday
we watched Brady throw out the 1st pitch at the Rivercats game
we saw Hailey make her Runway debut at Mamaraderie
we saw the start of a new school year at Our Lady of Grace
we watched Hailey start a new soccer season
Robynn has been able to rejoin the Girls for Bunco and Friday morning coffee

and the list goes on, because the fact is everything we are experiencing now was never thought possible it is all a blessing, a Miracle and only possible by the Grace of God!

I know you all pretty much know everything I have listed but the reason I did was to remind you all of the wonderful things YOU ALL have helped us achieve. Your kind words, your supportive emails and texts, your comments on the blogs, your attendance at the fundraisers and blood drives, and most of all the unending prayers you send up to our most Incredible Lord are what has helped Robynn and the Goodell Family get to where we are today. I can never thank you all individually (though I wish I could) and I can never begin to thank you enough, but please know that I am truly Grateful for what you have done for my Beautiful Bride of now 11years and 1 day and my family. You have given Hope, Love, Support, Kindness, Selflessness and so much more when it seemed that all was lost. I know Robynn is an inspiration to us all, but know YOU ALL are an inspiration to us!

My Uncle Sonny said (long before it was a book title or a campaign slogan) “It Takes a Village!” and for so many things it does take a Village, especially Fighting Cancer. Thank you all for being the most incredible Village/Army anyone could have ever wished for you all are incredible.

Last I want to Thank You for taking on the many special requests that have been placed on the Blog. We have seen what your prayers and support have done for so many people and I know they are all Grateful! Please continue to Raise Up Baby Jonah, his mom and dad (Scott & Amy) and all of their family. I know your kind words and encouragement have helped Robynn and I know they’ll do the same for the Goodman family! You can check in on them at http://www.jonahscott.blogspot.com/

One last thing promise, there are a couple of great songs I wanted to pass on from YouTube: Stand Up For Cancer had a fabulous theme song "Don't Give Up Just Stand Up!" that is really worth listening to. Here's the YouTube link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S47HSgvhneA&feature=related I believe you can also go to Itunes to purchase with procedes going to the fight against cancer.

I also wanted to pass on Callahans motivational song written and performed specifically for Robynn: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qY_600tqZIk I know many have seen this, but this is something worth revisiting. It has done so much for us, if you remember this song was given to Robynn that terrible week in April when things were at their worst. Look how far Robynn has come since then. Thank you Cal!

God Bless You All and Keep You Safe!

Robynns Adoring Husband!

A Rollercoaster Ride

That's the best way to describe this week for "Our Girl".
She's Standing Strong, but has her good and her not so good times.
Please pray that more good times are on the horizon.

Phil. 4:13:
"I can do all things through
Christ which strengthens me......"

Pray On and STAND UP TO CANCER!!!!
XOXO,
S

More FFF!!!;)

We had a fun filled time at Pinedorado! Robynn kept on top of her pain meds and got to watch the parade, see the ocean and shop with the girls;) She battled being a little sleepy, but all in all had a wonderful time "making memories"!
Please keep Robynn held up in CONSTANT prayer. Her body can only take so much chemo before it becomes intolerable. Ask that the Lords gentleness will fall upon her during this time.

Pray On!
S

Cowgirl Up!

Our Dear Robynn is struggling with abdominal pain and needs extra prayers!
Our family is headed to Cambria for Pinederado and we were unsure if Robynn could make the trip:( Being the TRUE WARRIOR that she is, there was no deterring her.
Her thoughts..."wherever I am, I'm gonna be sick so I might as well be with the ones I love and enjoying a beautiful view". That's the spirit, oh AMAZING ONE!!!!

Job 37:5
"God's voice is glorious in the thunder. We cannot comprehend the greatness of his power."

Pray On!
S

Can't keep Her down...

"Our Girl" had a rough night Sunday. The Sunday and sometimes Monday following chemo(Thursday) are usually her worst days, but yesterday was an ok day.
Please pray for LOTS MORE of those!;)
They are back on track at Our Lady of Grace and are thrilled to have Hailey there with Brady.

Psalm 9:10
Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you.

Love to all...
Pray On!
S

Results are In...

Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

We have seen firsthand that God's plan might be different from our own. But at the same time we have been witness to countless miracles and a change in our hearts, souls and actions.

The results of Robynn's tests were not as good as we hoped, but could have been worse. The tests confirm that some of the tumors have stayed the same size and some have grown slightly.
MD Anderson wants to for sure get in 2 more rounds of chemo, rescan/test and see if her body can tolerate 2 more after that. If this can be accomplished, she will get a rest from chemo for Thanksgiving and Christmas, and that definitely is a blessing!:)

Chin Up Soldiers.....
Pray On!
S

Nothin Outta Texas Yet:)

Please raise "Our Girl" UP, UP, UP, as we anxiously await the results of her scans/tests.

Please say a special prayer for my Uncle Dick, his wife Nancy and his son Ryan and other family and friends as we travel to Taft to leave Aunt Dorothy and Uncle Joe at their final resting place.

Psalm 139:7-10
Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.

It is because of this promise that we know HE will not let us fall. He will watch over us in our sadness and grief and turn it into something that will glorify His name. I'm sure Aunt Dorothy and Uncle Joe are in "Awe" of the place HE had waiting for them. Whenever I start feeling overwhelmed with despair, I think of the smiles on their faces in His presence and I find some relief.

Love to All!
Pray On!
S

She's Standing Strong!

Dear Friends,
I apologize for the delayed update. My only excuse is that his week has been a bit busy/overwhelming.
Robynn is feeling much better and her Procrit must have kicked in, because she did not require a transfusion while in Bakersfield. We aren't quite sure what was ailing her, but are relieved it has passed.
Services for our Aunt Dorothy and Uncle Joe were yesterday and when they ended, the Goodell's headed back to Sacramento. They are frantically getting packed for Texas and making sure the kids are ready for their 1st day of school. They leave Sunday morning and will start her normal set of testing Monday. Please pray that the chemo continues to work in Robynn's body to rid this cancer once and for all!!!

We thank you again for all your love, support and prayers...
Pray ON!
S

PS. Please pray as "one of our own", Miss Denise and crew travel to Nicaragua for 10 days to help in Our Lords work. What a wonderful way to serve and spread Our Gracious God's word. We are holding you up in our prayers and look forward to the stories of what you witness and accomplis in Christ's honor!

Back to Our Knees Soldiers

Robynn has really been suffering last night and this morning. Her discomfort is great, but is unable to take any pain meds because they make her nauseous. She is trying to stabilize enough to get in the car and get to the Dr. Today's visit should confirm or disprove her need for a transfusion and check other blood levels for clues as to what is causing her such misery.

Pray ON!
S

"I Am the Light of the World...

If you follow me, you won't be stumbling through the darkness, because you will have the light that leads to life." John 8:12
Our family is in great need of this reminder.
He is our salvation!

Just wanted to let you know Robynn and family are here in Bakersfield. She had chemo Thursday and found that her blood count was down and might require a transfusion. She looks fantastic and feels pretty good. We are thrilled to have them here this week and are anxious about their upcoming trip back to Texas. Keep our Sweet Robynn lifted in prayer!!!

Please ask the Lord to give us patience, understanding and calm in anticipation of the findings from detectives, that we hope to get in the next day or two. The waiting/not knowing definitely takes a toll.

Love you all!
Pray On!